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那天 一个人
was alone,

才发现，路途再遥远，再艰难。
then realized, no matter how tough it is,

还是要一个人面对。
i'll still need to overcome it, all on my own.

因为这人生是我的。
because, this is my life.


p/s - be responsible to my life, i told myself. recently im quite emo on some random but not-so-random stuffs. argh. i feel sorry to those who I scolded or offended, due to my emo-ness. =)

(photo taken by Fisheye No.2 with Agfa ProPack 200.)

dreams

it was fated, i believe.
i came across this child sponsorship scheme by World Vision some years ago, when i was reading readers digest.
i told myself, one day if i could afford to sponsor one child, i will do so.

then, last year december, i volunteered myself again for One Life Revolution Aids Awareness Campaign by World Vision.
my friend came up with the idea, "hey, i wanna sponsor a child, and you?"
i said, "only if somebody would share with me, because i can't afford to sponsor one child at the moment, but half of it, it's okay for me."
and he said, "oh yea, why not let's share?"
im not sure whether he remembers the real situation, but i can remember it quite well.
because it was a chance, a start, to what i've dreamt of always.

and we constantly contributed RM50 a month for the child, a young and healthy boy called Kumar from India.
it was his birthday and we decided to send him a greeting card.
we did not expect a reply, but we knew we want him to be happy with the card.

months later, we received a reply letter.
i almost burst into tears when i read the translation (because it was in tamil words and world vision staffs got it translated into english)



it was written like this,

"I am being promoted from the grade 5 to the grade 6. I am studying well and doing well in the school. I received the greeting card that you sent to me. Thank you so much. I showed it to my friends and my family and enjoyed doing so.
Thank you for all the help that you have been doing for my family and me. I am praying to the lord almighty for you and your family well-being."

a simple letter, with simple grammar.
but it means a lot to me.
happiness of a child, it's priceless.
i'm glad that i brought happiness to him.

people around me often ask me, why doing voluntary works, which is zero income?
let me tell you my friends, charity works bring no money, but they pay u unlimited love and happiness.
again i would say, it's priceless.
i mean people, we should not frame our dreams. in the sense of, dreams can be anything.
not only high goals, big money...
but to love, can be a dream too.


having your dream as realising the others' dream, would you?

i am doing what i can to love. and you?

p/s - one of my friends told me that he kinda like my blog posts and they're not lame at all. i'm glad. thanks, my friend. it's such a huge encouragement for me to blog on. =)

double exposure.

my favourite double exposure shot so far.





p/s - i donated blood again today! so proud of myself. and i was so so happy to read my sponsored child's letter. it made my day anyway. =D


(photo taken by Diana+ with Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.)

oh baby you're back.

baby welcome home.



gonna keep shooting and shooting and shooting with my dear holga 135 BC again.
LC-A+? guess gonna get it next year because I've spent my money on a new laptop and stuffs. >.<

oh wait, i've forgotten that im broke now and so i have no money to process my films. =( any sponsor?

p/s - I AM SO VERY ANGRY NOW! take a deep breathe, relax, jhen, relax.

(photo taken by Fisheye No. 2 with Kodak EBX, cross processed.)

启程

“想到达明天，现在就要启程”

-范玮琪《启程》

p/s - kinda unlucky recently. but not so bad luck actually. i just hope that everything will be fine soon. =D be optimistic, ya?

(photo taken by Superheadz UWS with Fuji Sensia 200, cross processed.)

see what's this!

Crowd Lu is releasing his 2nd album end of this month.
I wanted to make a pre-order, but, I didn't do it in the end.
Should I make a pre-order now?
The songs sound great!
=D



p/s - i guess i'll be getting a new laptop. MUAHAHA. but a NO-NO to LC-A+ at the moment. owh, next year maybe. =)

the old tv.

dear kids,

u loved the tv.
u loved me.

and now, the tv is old.
and i'm old too.

you've decided to throw the old tv away.
will you abandon me, like you did to the old tv?

p/s - love your parents, always and forever. they are the best gifts to you, aren't they?

吓到笑

自己很少看戏，不过前几个礼拜却突然心血来潮去看《吓到笑》。
很多人跟我说，新加坡戏很烂，很无聊。
不过我倒觉得，新加坡戏，让我觉得很真，很写实。

《吓到笑》里边有3个故事，我最喜欢的，莫过于第2个故事。
里面有一幕，我很喜欢。
话说两个正在服兵役的军人，在森林里迷了路，决定要走捷径。
然后他们两个谈着谈着，互相比较了起来，
原来他们在比较谁服役的时候，被惩罚得比较严重。
看到那一幕时，我就觉得，很真！真的很真！

不晓得这是一个年轻人的习惯还是怎样，我们往往就是会互相比较。
比较，如果是良性的，当然是好啦！
比较，如果是恶性，或者负面的，何必呢？
难道我们会为谁比较差，谁比较坏，而感到骄傲？

自己身边很多这类型的朋友。
比谁的功课比较多。
比谁的时间表比较烂。
比谁的成绩比较烂，几科不及格。
赢了这些，真的比较骄傲吗？

仔细想一想，其实我有时候好像也会跟朋友比较。
不过跟贫穷国家的小孩比起来，我一点都不可怜，而且还十分幸福。
对，我应该改掉这一个坏习惯！
我们一起来改掉它，好不好？

以后我们要说正面的，不是负面的！


p/s - 直接或许是一种潇洒，不过我会觉得，有时候直接是一种不懂人情世故的表现。i'm really sorry because i'm quite lazy to translate those above into english. haha. but basically i post this entry to remind all people, to be positive. and speak words of encouragement. =D



就好像今年饥饿30的主题曲唱的，‘明天还有希望’。
对只要我们相信，明天一定还有希望！大家要活得正面一点！
there's always hope, if you have faith in yourself. =)

always be positive!

(photo by Holga 135 BC, Fuji Provia 100F, cross processed.)

blur colors.

有时候在想，把所有东西看得那么清楚，
会很辛苦吧。

其实朦胧一点，也是会有彩虹。

p/s - 稍微有感觉到身边几位好友变了，朋友，正面一点，好吗？不然会很辛苦的。 and oh yea, it's a out-of-focus piece of photo. =(


(photo taken with Diana+, Fuji Provia 100F, medium format, cross processed)

ground level.

we should always see things from the ground level.
high expectations hurt you always, don't they?

p/s - i realized that i often have these lame lame posts nowadays and i'm really sorry with it. anyway the photo was my 2nd attempt to black and white film, yea it's Agfa APX 400. =)

(Superheadz UWS, Agfa APX 400, black and white processed.)

l.i.f.e.

life is like a journey with an unknown end.
the end might be tomorrow, or some years later.

i just came to realise that, people should not ask what they can get from others, but to ask what they themselves can contribute to the rest.

i always believe that contributing is an act of love and sincerity.
it might be your partner, your family, your friends, your pet or even people that you don't know.
so guys, start loving, and start contributing!
it will be a better world, for sure =D

afterall, i found this entry quite pointless. =.='''

p/s - i have nothing to type in p/s this time. LOL.


(photo by UWS with Fuji Sensia 200, cross processed.)

something called L.O.V.E.

为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事。
-梁文音《最幸福的事》

are you in love?

p/s - 最近好像自己都捉摸不到自己，你有看到jhen吗？如果有的话，请告诉她，别想太多了！



(photo by Diana+ with Fuji Provia 100F, medium format, cross processed.)