sorry

please dont blame me for not updating as often as i used to.
recently i have been really really busy....
with this-



and this-



Temporary Traffic Management of the A46 Newark to Widmerpool Improvement Scheme.
images courtesy of Highways Agency, UK.



no, dont worry. i am still passionate about what im doing.
even though i have not been sleeping earlier than 3am everyday since like, january or february?
hmmmm. :/



:)

抛物线

i have been really really busy these days.
projects, assignments and courseworks. (and dramas as well. oops.)

i am sorry that i didn't update my blog as usual as i used to. :(
and guess what, i haven't even start researching for photolabs who do film processing around nottingham. sigh, anybody can give me any guidance?

went to the cheshire oak designer outlet last week and had really great fun shopping there. lol. do not ask how much i have spent there, please.
here is one of the photos taken in the i-don't-know-where-is-it train station, named Stockport. lol.




and this train station comes with a platform number zero. yea, zero.
we thought we were supposed to bang the column in order to board the train, like the harry potter does. lol. non sense. but i was really surprised to see a platform zero. hahaha or maybe im just one of the kampung girl who hasn't done exploring the UK. lol.

recently i got really really addicted into Tanya Tsai's album, 抛物线. yea, i know it's not a new album, but still, it's super nice. hahaha. now i understand why she won the best female singer in taiwan. her songs are just, heart-touching.

aaaah. random much. lol.


p/s - don't think about only me, reverse the 'm' and think about we. yea, im annoyed by selfish people recently. lol.

(Photo taken by Olympus PEN E-PL1)

lomography pop 9

i used to think that the multi-lens lomo cameras are kinda, erm, not too interesting.
that time ss family (my very best friends!) was having this multi-lens fever where lee ahmuk decided to buy a supersampler and ter simsim decided to buy the actionsampler.
so i thought, why not i give a try, since i was having some piggies to spend and i oni needed to top up a small amount.
so i chosen the POP-9!
kia su mah, both supersampler and actionsampler only have 4 lens, while pop9 has 9! lol.
since the black one looks really ugly, i bought the gold one instead. :D

even though the results were not as mesmerizing as the LC-A+ or Holga use to give, but i swear that Pop-9 is the most fun and interesting lomo camera i have ever had. seriously.

one of my favourite shots -




lesson of the story -
do not frame yourself. why not stand out of the circle and give yourself more choices? this is my current point of view for my future career. hahaha.

spent quite a lot of pounds recently in getting some stuffs. aiks,seriously wanna save for a new mattress, this current old one is causing me backache. :( and why mattresses are so expensive in the UK? all of them are at least £100 or more. sigh. and i want a new coat so i have a bit of variety (im wearing the same one to class daily), i want Uniqlo's heattech tees to keep me warm, i want the zara's ankle boots and anya hindmarch's tote bag.

lol okay. i shall be really really disciplined not to over spend. no shopping, no shopping.

p/s - the priority of mine when im in UK isn't my studies, but meals i have everyday. whenever im free, i'd be thinking of what to eat for next meal. =.=||| please do not ask me my weight.

p/s again - peer pressure is killing me. arghhhhh.



(Photo taken by Lomography Pop-9 loaded with Agfa Precisa CT 100, cross processed.)

united and strong.

i remember someone once asked me, why did u choose civil engineering?
for me, teamwork is one of the reasons. :)
my involvement in school band during high school actually made a huge contribution in this.
the SMK St. Mary's school band was not really good.
in fact, the condition was really kinda bad when i first joined.
imagine having only 7 to 9 members attended the holiday practices. do u call that bad? :P
oh well, im still glad that i was part of the team.
during our time, the committees worked really hard to get whatever was possible.
we joined competitions even though we knew we sucked (so badly), we went for national day parade march pasts, we attended lessons, music exchange sessions, training camps etc etc.
of course, we got hit down by obstacles too sometimes.
to maintain a band is hard, moreover, we were trying to improve it.
when we were on the verge of giving up, our coach, told us not to.
he encouraged us to carry on. and we did. :)
when i left the band, the band really improved, i wouldn't say a lot, but they really improved.

sometimes im thankful that i joined the band. because i've learnt a lot.
i've learnt how to maximize my determination when i encounter tough situations.
and most importantly, i learnt to play in a team.
or in other words, i learnt to appreciate the beauty of teamwork. :)
flutes, clarinets, saxophones, horns, trumpets, euphoniums, trombones and tubas having different tunes and tones, playing their respective scores, and by combining them, a beautiful piece of music is produced.
amazing, i think.

for construction, the same theory applies.
no single engineer is able to build a building alone.

'united and strong',
this is the first line of our school song.
yes, get united and strong.
you will be amazed by teamwork.

'united and strong'

nevertheless, my involvement in school band has brought me a group of really good friends. :)

p/s - the girls are gonna have their first concert ever! 26th June 2010, 8p.m, St. Mary's school hall. anybody interested to tag along? let me know. :)

(Photo by LC-A+ loaded with Lomo X-Pro 100, cross processed.)

goodbye 3 years.

days in The University of Nottingham, Malaysia Campus are in past tenses now.
3 years is the duration, of me studying in UNMC.
throughout these 3 years, i have really seen a lot, and learnt as much.
i have also gained a lot, but of course, there were losses as well.

dear all lecturers and friends, thank you for everything you've given me in these 3 years.
thanks for the supports, understanding, tolerances, guidances, patience etc etc etc.
you have changed me into a better person. :)

the probability of meeting somebody is like 1 over 6.8 billions,
hence, i believe it was fate which brought us together.

and now, these 3 years of my life in UNMC have came to an end.
the memories are priceless. how i wish to have enough memory to actually store them all, every single second of it.

it's always hard to say goodbye. :(

p/s - afterall, this blog post is applicable only if i get to transfer to the UK campus successfully next semester. hahaha.


(Photo taken by LC-A+, loaded with Kodak EBX 100, cross processed.)

自己的步伐*my own pace

有时候，真的很想抛开别人眼光，压力。
我想掌控自己的步伐。

如果'比较'这个动词不存在，该有多好。



sometimes i really wish to abandon the peer pressure.
i want my own pace.

only if the verb, 'compare' doesn't exist in the world.



p/s - exam is still on. and damn it. Geotechnics 2 really killed me kao-kao. T.T


(Photo by LC-A+ loaded with Lomo X-Pro 100, cross processed.)

share.

wanna share with you guys one of my favourite shots from the recent rolls of films.
=D

"the past has enriched our lives."

“过去丰富了我们的人生”

p/s - exam is approaching real soon! best of luck to all! :)

(Photo with LC-A+ loaded with Kodak EBX 100, cross processed.)

感谢你*thanks all

又是接近学年末端，
it's again the end of academic year,


想跟在我这3年大学生涯在我身边的人说，
wanna tell all who were with me throughout these 3 years,


谢谢你。
THANK YOU!


3年里，我成长了许多，学到了很多，也看到了很多。
during these 3 years, i have changed a lot, learnt a lot and saw a lot.


感谢这一路来，有你！
im glad that i have you along this journey!



p/s - 下学期要去英国了，朋友，别忘了我啊！



(Photo taken by LC-A+ with Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.)

0415 生日快乐

nick gor gor a.k.a. kumar papa,







生日快乐！
今年生日最想给你的祝福语是

前程锦绣！

两个月后，大家各奔东西了，我们要为我们自己的生活加油！


p/s - 去UK后，kumar仔我还是会继续养下去的，别忘了我啊！ :) 还有，我自认为我的lomo拍得你很帅。哈哈。

朋友*friend

最近跟阿木时常谈起友情的话题。
recently, ah muk and i keep discussing issues about friendship.

在大学快要3年了，所谓大学就是一个迷你社会，
i've been studying in the uni for almost 3 years. well, as said, uni is like a mini society.

这3年里当然我也看了很多。
i have seen a lot, throughout these years.

学到了很多。
and of course, learnt a lot.

大学生活让我学会了怎么样对自己好。
uni life reminds me of treating myself better.

因为，你对人家好，人家也未必对你好。
because, even though you're good to people, people maybe not as good.

将心比心，在大学算是罕见了，可想而知，在现实社会更是寥寥无几。
being good to all people is already considered rare in uni, thus it's worse in the real society.

我们的人生，可以分成很多阶段，
life can be divided up to different stages,

而不同阶段，会有不同的人出现，也有不同的人离开。
people come and go during these stages.

这样想，或许看得比较开。
by thinking like this, you will be more optimistic.

=)

感谢所有在不同阶段出现的朋友。
thanks to all friends who were/are/gonna be involved in my life.





p/s - 谁是真心对我好，谁不是，我还分得出。 =)




(Photo by Diana+ with Kodak E100 120mm, cross processed.)

你走了。you left.

当焦点不在我的时候

when the attention isn't on me,

你，走了。

you left.

剩下我，

i'm alone.

只有我自己。

with myself.

我比较喜欢我自己

i like myself better.

没有你的自己。

myself without you.

面具。

mask.

p/s - haven't been updating as often as before. courseworks and assignments are killing me. sigh. and im waving bye to a LC-A Instant Back. annual dinner kills too. my wallet.

(Photo by LC-A+ with Agfa Propack 200)

store room*货舱

our hearts are like store rooms.
其实我们的心都像货舱。

they come, and they leave.
有人来，有人走。

“It doesn’t matter whether something can last as long as the sky and the earth.
What really matters is whether you’ve ever possessed it.”
really?
难道真的要不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有吗？

now i know, the most important is that we learn to appreciate.
我懂了，原来最重要的是学会珍惜。




p/s - i think time passes too too fast. im now in year 2 sem 2. foundation was like only yesterday. argh!

rest well.

really wish to have a good rest.
not now, but after the exam.




ahhhhh i hope im doing good for my finals.
first class here i comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. =D

p/s - my LC-A+ is now my best shopping companion. couldn't stop snapping. ahhh.



(Photo by LC-A+ with Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.)

a gift for myself.

bought one of these for myself last month.
and im loving it.
muahaha.



Photo by Lomo LC-A+ with Agfa ProPack 200.

p/s - one down, three more to go. wish me luck for my exams. =D

这次哭了*cried this time

想哭的时候

when i feel like crying,

我会拼命喝水

i will keep drinking lotsa water.

以为不会再哽咽

i thought the flow would bring my tears away from my eyes

不过

but

还是挡不住眼泪

i was wrong.

对。这次我哭了

ya. i've cried this time.

都因为自己懦弱

it's my fault.

p/s - oh please. i seriously need stronger EQ to overcome this.

(Photo taken by Holga 135 BC with Fuji Xtra 200)

i love u.

dear papa mama,

thanks for giving me everything. thanks for your patience.

when i was wrong, you told me what is right.

you know what is best for me, and you gave me your best.

and now i want to say,

I LOVE YOU.

dear gor gors,

thanks for being there for me.

i remember when i was young, you guys were there for me, when i was in tears.

you guys were there for me again, when i was in excitement.

those moments we spent together, i treasure each and every of it.

and now i want to say

I LOVE YOU.

dear ss family members,

thanks for listening to me always.

mukie, remember those times i called you and i burst into tears.

you did not say a word, what you did was just, listened.

mei mei, sim sim, yin yin and wai hong, distances are keeping us apart now, and i really miss y'all.

and now i want to say

I LOVE YOU.

dear ALL my friends,

sorry because i couldn't name each and everyone of you here. but i'm pretty sure you know who you are.

thanks for making my life wonderful.

i really couldn't imagine how my life would be if it's without you.

i know i'm those type of girl who complains always, and i'm glad that you did not ignore me.

you were there for me.

and now i want to say

I LOVE YOU.

it's 1118. and i'm a year older.

i really wish all people to be in pink of health, and world peace. =D

I AM EVERYTHING I AM, BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME.

and now i want to say,

I LOVE YOU

oh ya. not to forget, my little sweatheart, lucky zai.

you know jie jie loves you always. muacks kyky.

p/s - my mom sent me a sms at 12am sharp and i nearly cried. thanks mom. i really love u. heart heart! and the cari gang kidnapped me to TTS 5. and they made me nearly cried too. i'm thankful. for having you all around me.

(photo taken by Holga 135 BC with Kodak EBX, cross processed.)

dreams

it was fated, i believe.
i came across this child sponsorship scheme by World Vision some years ago, when i was reading readers digest.
i told myself, one day if i could afford to sponsor one child, i will do so.

then, last year december, i volunteered myself again for One Life Revolution Aids Awareness Campaign by World Vision.
my friend came up with the idea, "hey, i wanna sponsor a child, and you?"
i said, "only if somebody would share with me, because i can't afford to sponsor one child at the moment, but half of it, it's okay for me."
and he said, "oh yea, why not let's share?"
im not sure whether he remembers the real situation, but i can remember it quite well.
because it was a chance, a start, to what i've dreamt of always.

and we constantly contributed RM50 a month for the child, a young and healthy boy called Kumar from India.
it was his birthday and we decided to send him a greeting card.
we did not expect a reply, but we knew we want him to be happy with the card.

months later, we received a reply letter.
i almost burst into tears when i read the translation (because it was in tamil words and world vision staffs got it translated into english)



it was written like this,

"I am being promoted from the grade 5 to the grade 6. I am studying well and doing well in the school. I received the greeting card that you sent to me. Thank you so much. I showed it to my friends and my family and enjoyed doing so.
Thank you for all the help that you have been doing for my family and me. I am praying to the lord almighty for you and your family well-being."

a simple letter, with simple grammar.
but it means a lot to me.
happiness of a child, it's priceless.
i'm glad that i brought happiness to him.

people around me often ask me, why doing voluntary works, which is zero income?
let me tell you my friends, charity works bring no money, but they pay u unlimited love and happiness.
again i would say, it's priceless.
i mean people, we should not frame our dreams. in the sense of, dreams can be anything.
not only high goals, big money...
but to love, can be a dream too.


having your dream as realising the others' dream, would you?

i am doing what i can to love. and you?

p/s - one of my friends told me that he kinda like my blog posts and they're not lame at all. i'm glad. thanks, my friend. it's such a huge encouragement for me to blog on. =)

blur colors.

有时候在想，把所有东西看得那么清楚，
会很辛苦吧。

其实朦胧一点，也是会有彩虹。

p/s - 稍微有感觉到身边几位好友变了，朋友，正面一点，好吗？不然会很辛苦的。 and oh yea, it's a out-of-focus piece of photo. =(


(photo taken with Diana+, Fuji Provia 100F, medium format, cross processed)

study, again.

yup, i'm not updating my blog as much as i did.
because i have started my new semester, again.
6 modules, as usual. but they're tougher of course.
=(
i'm so depressed now.

i have developed my long accumulated films, 7 rolls of it.
but i just couldn't upload them to any photostream because of the internet connection here.
so very sorry. >.<


p/s - 又再一次不小心了吗？

study.

nice sunset, hor? [please agree with me, please please.]
this photo was taken in The University of Nottingham, Malaysia Campus.

aiks. will be going back campus in like, 2 days time?
and will need to start studying in 3 days time.

oh hello everybody, i'm officially a civil engineering year 2 student.
wish me best of luck in this coming new semester.
=D

p/s - mama said, "HUH? you've been accompanying me since june and now you're going back to campus?" with the expression =( awwwww. mommy mommy, no worries okay, i will still be your best shopping companion, no matter what. muahaha. =D