J.for.Jhen

与我常在

2012-01-30T23:02:00.002Z

"除非你是我, 才可与我同在"

随着年龄的增长, 才发现, 这世界人与人之间的差异实在是无限多,

我越来越喜欢跟自己分享心事了.

纯粹是因为自己已经不再奢求那些同情的了解, 还有那些没必要的客套,

我选择更贴近自己, 让自己思考.

我选择在理性与感性之间游移, 就好像走钢索,

不断地平衡自己.

你不了解我没关系, 至少我一直一直努力了解我自己,

这样就不可悲了.

[Photo taken by LC-A+ loaded with Kodak Elite Chrome Extra Color EBX 100, cross processed.]

新年新希望*new year hope

2012-01-21T18:19:00.001Z

这一年，我希望

寻找方向；坚持。

还有就是我爱的人和爱我的人都健健康康。

2012, i hope to find my direction; and be determined.

and wish that people around me are all in the pink of health.

新年快乐！

Happy Chinese New Year!

p/s - yes bought a refurbished Polaroid from Impossible store in Vienna last December! :DDDDDDD

[Photo taken with Polaroid Supercolor 635 loaded with Impossible PX680 Color Shade First Flush.]

Prague, again on 2011.

2012-01-10T22:48:00.000Z

yes, i have visited Prague again.

but this time, it's the snowless, sunny prague.

St. Vitus Cathedral, i kinda like the atmosphere here. elegant, and romantic. :)

This is Charles Bridge, didn't really pay attention during the last visit, but this time, watched the sunset there, was really mesmerised.

Prague Castle area and Charles Bridge. Didn't go to the viewing tower (with 200+ stairs) this time to take pictures, but the night scenes in Prague are still impressive.

Christmas market in Prague's Old Town Square, with a huge crowd, and tasty foooooood!

i was asked numerous time about my visit to Prague this time.
i said, if i have the chance, i would like to visit Prague again and again in the future.

well, for me, travelling isn't about getting the passport stamped.
i'd rather spend my time on places i love.
because experience earned for each visit is unique.

well, went to Vienna and Salzburg as well this time after Prague.
still, i prefer Prague!
photos will be uploaded soon, i hope. :D

p/s - travelling isn't about getting the immigration stamps, just like having good results in academic doesn't mean you are wise. :)

[Photos taken with Olympus PEN E-PL1 with Olympus M. Zuiko Digital 45mm f/1.8 or Olympus Digital M. Zuiko 14-42mm f/3.5-5.6 ED.]

happy day.

2011-11-18T00:00:00.002Z

it's the day of the year again,

thanks papa, mama, gor gors, all my friends and lucky.

you guys made every pieces of who i am today.

thank you.

i love you.

wishing all of you well. :)

p/s - it's my birthday today. woohooo!

efforts.

2011-11-06T12:15:00.006Z

it's always about the way we present ourselves.

and for that, i dont really believe in fate or fortune.

i believe in efforts, instead.

i do, really.

p/s - was really surprised when mom and bro told me they actually read my blog. think i should write safe next time. hmm. :P

[Photo taken by Natura Classica loaded with Kodak EBX 100, cross processed.]

你好吗?

2011-11-01T16:38:00.003Z

好久没写东西了,

因为我很忙,我自己说的.

受不了控制,有很多复杂的因素,

我好累。

很想问问自己，你还好吗?

累吗?

抱歉哦，每次都让你硬撑，

辛苦你了.

i miss you.

2011-09-11T18:54:00.003+01:00

那天穿越云海，多么希望能看见你。

我好想你，你知道吗？

一年前你还安慰我说，不哭不哭；

一年后的我还是不小心让泪水糊了双眼。

不过却再也听不到你的安慰。

我好想你，好想好想你。

p/s - 外公。

[Photo taken by Natura Classica loaded with Lomography CN 800 negative.]

桃花开摇摇摆摆

2011-09-07T19:19:00.002+01:00

近期最爱的歌，非《桃花开摇摇摆摆》莫属。
又是一首感叹岁月的好歌。
信，写得好！

很少台语歌词可以写得那么到位。

“到底心要有外阔才装得下孤单”

p/s - 还开玩笑地跟朋友说，接下来几个月的梦中情人，是信。哈哈。

[Photo taken by Holga 135 BC loaded with Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.]

always there*一直都在

2011-08-31T18:46:00.005+01:00

went back to dad's hometown yesterday.

昨天陪爸爸回去家乡一趟

dad brought me to the place he used to stay when he was young.
爸爸带我去看看他的老家

a ruined old house.
一个已经荒废的家

while dad was telling me a lot of stories, i whispered,
当爸爸兴致勃勃地告诉我很多很多的往事，我轻声说，

'thank you'.
感恩。

thank you, old house.
感谢老家。

thank you, old times.
感谢岁月。

thank you, daddy.
感谢爸爸。

the visit led me into a deep thought.
认真地想了一想，

how often we blame time for snatching memories, stuffs, materials...?
我们常常责怪岁月冲淡了某些回忆，淘汰的某些东西，

and how often we thank time for leading us through those bad days, helping us to grow?
我们可曾感谢岁月，让我们走出低潮，让我们成长？

afterall, time makes us alive. :)
原来是岁月让我们活着。

其实，岁月并没有偷走什么

就好像，不管阴天雨天晴天春天夏天秋天冬天，白昼或黑夜，

其实，太阳一直都在。

p/s - haven't really got use to Natura Classica yet. :( oh well anyone looking for instant cameras or lomo cameras and films? please support IS NOT A TOY.

(Photo taken by Fuji Natura Classica loaded with Lomography Color Negative 800.)

给某人

2011-08-05T17:07:00.004+01:00

曾经曾经,

你是否也和我一样，憧憬着那美好的未来，想要追逐那所谓的梦想?

几时几时,

你也奢求那些所谓伟大的爱情，同时高喊友谊万万岁?

那时那时,

你有没有站在十字路口,双手捂住耳朵只想听到自己的声音?

随着年龄增长,你是否发现,

那所谓的未来,永远都未来,不会来; 那所谓的梦想,也只是梦里所想.

那所谓伟大的爱情,有时也只会是你的负担; 那所谓的友情,根本不可能万岁.

还有,你以为自己真的可以做自己,不受别人影响吗?

未来如果来了,就不会是未来.

现在就好像一条绳子,绑住了你我的双脚,我们再怎么摆动双翼，都无法飞翔。

在你梦的同时，现实就狠狠地一巴一巴的掴下去，惊醒了你我。

爱情无法养饱人,可是却很多人饥渴地想得到它,它到底哪里伟大啦?

友谊既然不可能万岁,我们又何必说谎.

做自己虽然很酷,不过其实也很苯.

我说呀,事情不用样样近距离对焦,偶尔把镜头距离拉长,你会发现,现实和眼光就是你的光圈和闪光灯.

现实和自己不断拉扯.

还有还有,很多事情都不急于一时,你会拥有的,等时机一到握紧拳头就会有;不会来的,强求也只会有空气从指缝溜过.

这几年学到的,可能我还没到那个可以分享人生历练的年龄,

不过,还是想在这里说一说我的看法.哈哈.

p/s - 你我都被现实谋杀了！

*发现其实自己写的东西结构都很差，很乱！我会尽量改进！哈哈哈！*

p/s again - 韦礼安你的专辑真的有必要那么好听哦！害我每次驾车都很不专心！哈哈哈！

[Photo taken by LC-A+ loaded with Fuji Velvia 100F]

the answer

2011-07-31T18:22:00.003+01:00

our lives are always filled with questions everywhere, everyday.

but how often do we get the right answer?

what are the right answers for these questions?

for me, these answers depend on our points of view.

when you are struggling with uncertainties of life,

remember, the answer is you.

you have the power, to decide whether these answers are right or wrong.

:)

be mentally strong!

*a photo to share with you guys! :)the natural history museum of london. :D*

p/s - the weekend schedule was filled with all my favourite activities with my favourite sisters. :D a perfect weekend!

[Photo taken by LC-A+ loaded with Kodak EBX 100, cross processed.]

when i need courage,

2011-07-17T01:10:00.001+01:00

那天,与谁擦肩而过
that day, who passed by your side

又和谁到了同一个目的地?
and who reached the same destination as you?

昨天，与谁进了同一间餐厅
yesterday, who dined in the same restaurant

又和谁坐了同一个的座位?
and who has the same seat as you?

现在，与谁感受着同一个温度
now, who is feeling the same temperature

又和谁呼吸着同一个节奏
and who is breathing the same tempo as you?

明天，会与谁会在路上见面
tomorrow, who will be meeting you in this journey

又会和谁拥有类似的命运
and who will be having similar fate as you?

我总觉得,在世界另一个角落，有人会和我思考着一样的东西，面对着一样的烦恼。
i think that, there is always someone at the other corner of this earth, who shares the same thought, and faces the same problems with me.

所以,我不是一个人作战
so, i know i am not alone.

勇气来了
and here comes the courage.

*我没勇气时都这样想的*
*i always think this way when i need courage*

p/s - adele is good. :) natura classica is also good. :D

(Photo taken by LC-A+ loaded with Kodak EBX, cross processed.)

一路走来

2011-07-06T17:46:00.004+01:00

突然在书柜里抽出了一本十年前很熟悉，可是现在却陌生的很的书--小学个人资料册。

一页一页的翻阅着，

回忆，一幕一幕地播映着。

2001年至今，整整十年了！

册子里的自愿，我填了设计师。

而现在的我正在修读土木工程，也算是马路，建筑结构设计师吧？

朋友写的自愿有医生，律师，警察，甚至连专业吉他手的也有。

我的小学同学们，你们还好吗？

请恕我孤僻，而且不擅长与旧朋友保持联络。

只愿你们都安好。

p/s - 最近和小黑的感情还不错。最近的标题和内容都有一点不搭嘎，对不起。是因为都是写了标题，选了图才写内容的。i promise, an english post soon. :) 这几天睡前想到外公，眼眶还是湿的。

(Photo taken by LC-A+ loaded with Fuji T60 Pro)

掉了

2011-07-04T11:18:00.003+01:00

依稀记得，小时候，

农历新年或学校假期最爱就是去外公家玩，

那时侯，外公总会逗我，

问我说，“妹妹哪里最美？”

我就会答说，“头发最美！”

然后外公就会捧腹大笑，说我乖。

从小到大，身边的人都觉得说我的天生自然卷发，

是负面的，是不好的，

经常抛了很多问号，疑问给我和妈妈，

还有人经常像我炫耀说他/她的直发直到不行。

就只有外公，认真地说过我的卷发美。

去年出发去英国的前一天，

特别拨了一通电话给外公，让当时的我泪流满面

他哄我说，“出国留学是很好很好的事情，别哭，也别怕，外公等你回来”。

外公，在星期四那天走了。

很遗憾，在外公生前没好好的跟他拍照，

这张是2008年替外公庆生的时候拍的。

照片失焦了，

照片里的外公虽然模糊，

不过在我心里的外公，依然很清晰，无论样貌或声音。

p/s - 掉了。

爱*love

2011-06-26T16:03:00.006+01:00

人的心，就只有拳头般的大小，
a heart is only as small as a fist

为什么我们往往都被怨恨蒙蔽了双眼，
why do we often get blindfolded by hatred?

让怨恨住进了那小小的空间？
why do we often allow our hearts to be filled with hatred?

希望，
hope that,

趁还能呼吸，还有能力的时候，
while we are still breathing, still having the ability to love,

爱。
please love.

只有爱。
only love.

p/s - please love and have no regrets.

(Photo taken by LC-A+ loaded with Fuji Velvia 100F)

跌痛

2011-06-22T11:10:00.004+01:00

忘了几时升得很高，
i forgot when i was held up high.

可是很记得那时侯，跌得很痛。
but i remembered, when i fell unexpectedly.

是内伤，一定是内伤！
it must be internal injuries.

要不然为何镜子里面都看不到痛？
if not, why aren't mirrors reflecting pain?

*好了好了我坦白一点好了，我大三成绩出来了，我没有first class，我只有69%，我很失望，又怕大四追不回，我很怕输的，你们都知道的。好了好了，我很少对你们那么直接坦白的。*

(Photo taken by LC-A+ loaded with Fuji Velvia 100F)

走

2011-06-20T03:40:00.004+01:00

收拾心情，一个人。

一个人，收拾心情。

已经准备好要走了咯！

出发！

this is also one of my favourite photos among the batch.
taken in Warwick Castle, and this is xiaoyien's bag. :)

(Photo taken with LC-A+ loaded with Konica Monochrome VX400)

home is good. :D

2011-06-18T07:06:00.004+01:00

yes, i am back!
and i am doing thing that i missed doing for the past 9 months.
sent 9 rolls (yes quite disappointing huh? i took only 9 rolls. i am guilty. sigh. ) of films to foto mega and got them back today. heehee.
can't wait to view and arrange all of the photos accordingly. and of course upload them to my lomohomes!
ah! finally! after so long! lol.

one of my favourite shots:

a double exposure shot, which is quite rare for me. hahaha.
taken in birmingham, roadside. lol.

will definitely be back with more photos. :D see ya!

p/s - did i tell you that my LC-A+ just recovered itself? but i haven't got him new vitamins (batteries) yet. :/

(Photo taken by LC-A+ loaded with Fuji Velvia 100F)

i wanna do it my way*做我自己

2011-05-17T22:44:00.004+01:00

别把我放到你的乐园里，

don't lead me to your fantasy

别把我塞进你漂亮衣裳里，

don't fit me into your beautiful clothes

别把我迁进你的理想世界里，

don't move me to your ideal world

我只想当我自己。

i just wanna be myself.

你所谓的好，对我来说未必好。

your happiness might not be my happiness.

我只想当我自己。

i just wanna be myself.

p/s - 最近都在听苏打绿，纪佳松和韦礼安。赞啦！有谁的taste和我一样吗？哈哈哈。看了《单身男女》，又是另一部慢节奏的好戏！LC-A+ is dead. but a friend of him is coming soon. thanks lian mien for transporting him! heehee.

(Photo taken by Holga 135 BC loaded with Lomography X-Pro 100 film, cross processed.)

happy mother's day!

2011-05-08T05:36:00.002+01:00

"mama thank you for who i am"
Il Divo - Mama

i think i use to post this song annually, either for my mom's birthday, or mother's day.
whatever.

my real friends would know how much my mom and i depend on each other. and now im on the 8th month away from home, i really miss you, mama.

i hope you are always in pink of health. :)

mama, i love you.

and happy mother's day to all mama! :)

我还在学！

2011-05-06T03:21:00.003+01:00

很久没有真正写东西了。

如果你问我，来到英国学到了什么？
我会告诉你，是人生与生活。

自从进了大学后，我自认成绩一直都不差，
不过在上一个学期，我的成绩让人感到失望。
当然，起初我一直责怪自己做得不够好。
不过，当我冷静下来想一想，找一找，
我看到了我对土木工程的热忱，
朋友都说我可能是在催眠自己。或许吧。不过我从中四开始就想念土木工程，这是一个事实。
我顿时觉得自己是幸福的。
活得有热忱，才是人生嘛！

成绩？也只不过是数字。
所谓的成与败也只不过是比较出来的吧？
与其拿成绩这一把尺来衡量一个人，
不如我们真的仔细观察一个人的全部吧。

我一直都觉得有人的地方就会有人事问题。
来了英国，我一再地跟朋友说，
如果你人品糟糕，又有谁会看见你的成绩呢？
其实，人与人的相处才是我们每个人该修的课。
这一门课，我们永远都修不完。

前几天跟朋友谈起人生百态。
这一段时间我真的领略到真正的一种米养百种人。
你永远没可能完全了解一个人，每个人都有让你出乎预料的时候。
所以，那些无所谓的衡量，那些尺，其实没有必要太在意。
你们有试过判一个人死刑（加上标签）吗？
我发觉，这样只会让你错过很多美好的人事物。
试着去接受任何一种人，找出适当的相处方式。

最近的我，很好。
EQ好像有进步了。
还有还有，热忱满满的！
这一路，或许会埋怨，不过我很感恩~

这些，是我最近学到的生存之道。

p/s - 觉得我应该多一点阅读。写得乱七八糟的~ 还有我想说，我知道朋友都很关心我，不过有些事情，我会自己处理的。谢谢。

p/s again - 最近很欣赏的歌手--张心杰。 :) 对了，我有买孙燕姿的《是时候》，很棒！那应该是本年度我最爱的专辑吧。去年最爱方大同《Timeless》。对了，我一时兴起注册了微博，jhen89，关注我吧！

(为了纪念我LC-A+，这一篇我不加照片。)

十年一刻

2011-04-26T04:03:00.003+01:00

"可能忙了又忙可能傷了又傷可能無數眼淚在夜晚嚐了又嚐"

the biggest lesson learnt in year 2010/11 -- give and take.

pay, be it effort or sacrifice, before getting what is desired.

p/s - 爱上了茉莉花茶的涩。

'Love Never Dies' in London Adelphi Theatre

2011-04-12T04:47:00.004+01:00

went for Phantom of the Opera on the 4th, and Love Never Dies on the 5th.
my friends said i was crazy. lol. i wanted to go for Stomp as well, but too bad, no moolah!

if you have not known, 'Love Never Dies' is the sequel written by Andrew Llyod Webber and performed only not long ago, erm, perhaps only a year ago. :)
i was quite disappointed by the story and especially scenes before the intermission.
but the show went pretty good after the intermission.

one of my favourite piece from Love Never Dies,

Let hopes pass, let dreams pass, let them die. Without you, what are they for?

'Til' I Hear You Sing' by Ramin Karimloo.

too bad, Ramin Karimloo was on leave for the show I attended. Tam Mutu was the phantom of the night. But still, he was superb! his voice was amazing when he performed Til' I Hear You Sing. actually, i'd prefer Tam Mutu's version of it, than the youtube clip of Ramin's. :)

not gonna tell you the plot of Love Never Dies. :D i think it's a good musical that worth attending to the theatre to watch.

oh! haven't I told ya that Andrew Llyod Webber is my new idol? he is the producer for many of the musicals in London, Phantom of the Opera, Love Never Dies, Wizard of Oz, Cats and The Sound of Music, bla bla bla.
he is also the composer of most of the songs. Think of Me, All I Ask of You, Til' I Hear You Sing, Memory bla bla bla.
for me, he is a musician as great as Joe Hisaishi and John Williams. :D

p/s - aiks, Phantom of the Opera was great as well. love the scene where Raoul and Christine escape to the roof, and sang 'All I Ask of You'. sweeeet! but too bad, my friend and I felt that even La Carlotta sang better than Christine. and this current Christine is rated as the worst Christine for Her Majesty's Theatre ever. :/

share with you one more great song by Andrew Lloyd Webber,

I remember the time I knew what happiness was. Let the memory live again

Memory, from Cats

*woohooo phantom and love never dies were my 2nd and 3rd musical in London! more to come! saving mooooolah for Mama Mia and Les Miserable. mama mia, here i go again... i dreamed a dream in time gone byyyyyyy~*

马来西亚，噢，我的国土

2011-04-10T10:32:00.003+01:00

'Malaysia, oh, tanah airku...'
这首歌对大家来说应该不陌生吧？

来了英国大概8个月之久，
认识了很多不同国籍的朋友，
三不五时地大家会一起谈起自己的国家。
朋友问我怎样看马来西亚，我都会回答说，
‘我爱马来西亚，不过马来西亚好像没有很爱我’
然后他们就会大笑。哈哈哈。

不是吗？
如果马来西亚爱我，为什么执政党领袖之一会说我们华人是寄居者？
如果马来西亚爱我，为什么副首相会说‘马来人优先，马来西亚人居次？’
还有那些马来西亚奖学金和大学录取制度？

趁着假期，我跟着朋友来到了伦敦。
这是我第5次来伦敦，不过之前4次都来匆匆去匆匆，也没看到什么。
这一次总算比较空闲。其中有一天下午5点多，我一个人去搭了地铁。
‘5点多的伦敦地铁，真的有够震撼的咯~’，我跟我朋友说。
朋友住的是金融中心附近，所以搭地铁的85%都是上班族。
对他们的印象就是--步伐很快很快，上了地铁每个人手中都是一本书/杂志。
我对自己说，‘这就是developed country嘛！’
回想起马来西亚KTM的情景，天壤之别！
对我来说，马来西亚人民就是uncivilised，国家就是undeveloped。

其实，之前去A46高路site visit时，我就有了小小的启发。
我跟自己说，如果有机会，我会留在英国工作。
家人反应还算是支持我，不过有些朋友就笑我笨，说要留下来工作哪里那么容易？
‘英国会好过马来西亚很多吗？tax是高到~’其中一个马来西亚朋友对我说。
我心想，对，税是很高，不过至少是公平的。
朋友就立刻反驳说，‘你以为英国没有discrimination？’
种族歧视？对，我也有见过排斥华人的英国人，不过又有多少个？

多数时候我看见的是英国如何珍惜人才。
其实不只有英国，比较civilised一点的国家都会珍惜人才的。
唯独是我们可爱的马来西亚，很开心地送走一个又一个的人才（当然，是非马来人的人才）。
在英国工作，至少竞争是公平的。
给高一点的所得税，至少那些钱真的有在发展国家。
马来西亚的兄弟姐妹们，你们的所得税去了谁的口袋？
马来西亚没有天灾体育馆会倒，都没有打仗军舰引擎不翼而飞，买回来的潜水艇不能潜水？
你们觉得你们缴的税去了哪？

另外，我想英国应该不会有人突然从反贪大厦坠楼然后他们跟你说是宗悬案。
在英国工作，给再高的税，至少会活得比较有尊严。不会三不五十给政治领袖叫你回中国，
还可以代享受与其他英国人民相等的待遇-投票的权利，医药服务，甚至是公平的大学录取。
为什么他们并没有什么什么所谓的特权？懊恼。

为了这些，我想我宁愿缴比较高的税。
另外一个英国朋友笑笑说，‘对咯，你的学费现在是10千镑一年，在英国fresh grad工程师一年收入24千镑;马来西亚24千零吉，你觉得那一个比较划？’
我也笑了起来。真的会觉得很pai seh。

不过，总有一天我还是会回去马来西亚的。
（可能是等我拿到了chartered吧)
因为马来西亚还是我的tanah air。
我要回去投票！

朋友说'你是不是读civil的啊？投反对党等一下我们这一行没有额外income’
这个问题我真的不知道怎么回答。
你可以说我跟钱过意不去，不过我想，如果国家进步，人民个个有饱饭吃，
civil的工程也没有什么只sub给什么什么有特权的人，
总好过你的额外income吧？

还有人说‘你觉得反对党会比较好meh?一样的啦~’
没有人叫你投反对党for the sake of要投反对党。
我们现在需要的是一个民主的国家。
democratic，是我们要的。
哪一个执政党不好，我们就要淘汰。

马来西亚，请站起来！
我们要把我们的民主要回来！

p/s - 之前跟妈妈开了个玩笑，说在英国一个月赚2千镑，星加坡2千星币，马来西亚2千零吉，一台16GB iPhone在英国卖500镑，星加坡888星币，马来西亚2190零吉。真的难怪马来西亚没有applestore，就算有他们应该也会再考虑卖不卖sim-free iphone。还是分期付款的iphone比较适合？还难得有人说马来西亚重温美好感觉叻~！

(sorry啦~中文没有很好不过只是想跟大家分享一下自己所想的)

something*有些事情

2011-03-28T02:46:00.007+01:00

there were things, i did not say.
有些事情，我没有说。

please do not make guesses and assumptions.
请你不要猜，更不要说你以为。

i am not lost.
我没有迷失。

i will still look back on myself always.
我偶尔还是会回头看看那个我。

thanks for your concern.
谢谢你的关心。

p/s - ah! finally got the time to write something! to all my friends, i am fine. :D life's good. i just had a great month. :D

“生命中，不断地有人离开或进入。

于是，看见的，看不见的；记住的，遗忘了。

生命中，不断地有得到和失落。

于是，看不见的，看见了；遗忘的，记住了。

然而，看不见的，是不是就等于不存在？记住的，是不是永远不会消失？”

-摘自几米《月亮忘记了》

[Photo taken by Olympus PEN E-PL1]

sorry

2011-03-24T21:47:00.006Z

please dont blame me for not updating as often as i used to.
recently i have been really really busy....
with this-

and this-

Temporary Traffic Management of the A46 Newark to Widmerpool Improvement Scheme.
images courtesy of Highways Agency, UK.

no, dont worry. i am still passionate about what im doing.
even though i have not been sleeping earlier than 3am everyday since like, january or february?
hmmmm. :/

:)

骗子

2011-03-02T01:26:00.004Z

Photo taken with Olympus PEN E-PL1 @ Birmingham, UK.

活了那么久，
其实也没有很久。

看了那么多，
不过好像也没有很多。

我知道，人是最可怕的骗子。
人啊，往往都只会展现自己最好，可是却不是最真的那一面。
人，有时连呼吸都在撒谎。

我不会怪你骗我。
因为，有时候我也给自己骗了。
不用怕，如果我找到了我心里的那个骗子，我一定狠狠地教训它一顿！
哼！尽然把我蒙在鼓里！

来，一起通缉我们心里的骗子！

p/s - 最近生活处于学习状态。太多新鲜事了！突然感觉自己还年轻！哈哈哈！还有，最近好爱吴青峰！哈哈哈

random shots in prague*布拉格乱拍篇

2011-02-13T00:00:00.002Z

as i promised, im uploading more photos! heehee!
do visit my blog these few days for updates! :D
here are some random shots taken in Prague. enjoy

hot chocolate from an italian restaurant in kutna hora. :D

a bookshop in kutna hora.

paul frank spotted in prague!!

sausages and hot wine, u can get it everywhere in prague basically.

the trumpeter for the astronomical clock tower. he plays every hour and waves to the crowd below the tower. and the crowd cheers back. cool!

and finally my Prague trip travel mates. taken in MUSTEK metro station, i still remember! :Pfrom left to right, khaimun, seah, max, jess and xiaoyien.

will be uploading more photos very very soon! :D

and people, i need comments! LOL!

(muka tembok nak minta comment ni!)

churches in prague*布拉格教堂篇

2011-02-12T19:49:00.003Z

oops. i had been abandoning my blog again. im sorry.
here are some of the photos to share,
taken in churches in czech republic. :D
enjoy!

the view when i first entered the St. Vitus Cathedral, located in the Prague Castle area.

in the St. Vitus Cathedral.

ticket for all spots in the Prague Castle area. only 125KC, after student discount.

x'mas tree deco in the St. Vitus Cathedral. love love love!

st vitus from the ground level. :D

lovely couple having their wedding photo shoot in front of the st vitus cathedral.

the bones chandelier in church of bones, located in kutna hora, 1 hour of bus away from prague.

bones again!

skull!

st barbara church, from the ground level again!

st barbara church, again. :)
p/s - more photos to come! :D i promise!

prague at night*布拉格夜景篇

2010-12-30T17:05:00.002Z

why did i choose prague as my first destination?
let these pictures tell you. :)

Palladium, a shopping mall very near to our hotel. it represents the modern side of prague. :) and this is the place where we got our daily supper and snacks. :P

the Petrin Lookout Tower, built in the 1800s. 299 steps, and breathtaking view of prague. :) located in a landscaped gardens on Petrin Hill, one of the best places to have snow fight in prague! heehee.

view of prague castle from the Petrin Lookout Tower. amazing.

the astronomical clock, located near the old town square. there's a viewing tower on top of that too.

view from the astronomical clock tower, with st. nicholas church on the left. sorry for the bad angle. :p

a photo that i have posted in the last post. view of the old town square (yes, this is the place jolin sings about!) from the astronomical clock tower. it's christmas market going on, with nice food and friendly people! heehee!

a LED angel decoration in the old town square.

at around 5pm, stepped out of the metro station,
the first impression of prague was, wow. astonishing.
with slight snow that time, prague was amazingly beautiful!
i came to the right place, i told myself.

that's all for now, more photos to come!

p/s - i have decided to upload the large size photos, to give you a better view. :p at the same time, sorry for the bad quality of photos okay? still learning mah! heeeheeeee!

feliz navidad!

2010-12-25T11:57:00.004Z

ahoy everybody! just came back from Prague, Czech Republic yesterday.
i like it a lot! and i think i will be back again! (if i have a chance. hehe.)

haven't really sort the pictures out yet. will do it soon. hehehe. one of it to share -

view of the Prague Old Town Square from the Astronomical Clock Tower. :D

在布拉格天文钟塔眺望，前方是布拉格广场，后方则是布拉格城堡。
布拉格，真的很美。

p/s - sorry for abandoning my blog for quite some time. :( will try to update more frequently soon! :D

thank you. 一切很美，只因有你。

2010-11-17T16:00:00.000Z

thanks papa, mama and gor gors.
thanks for your patience, and always being there for me, no matter what.
thanks for your tolerance, thanks for everything.
you are the best gifts of my life.

thanks ahmuk lee, simsim ter, yinyin low and meimei ter.
thanks for being there for me throughout these long 7 years.
i know we haven't been meeting each other frequently, but the friendship is still strong.

thanks to all people who was and is involved in my life.

thanks for teaching me how to live my life.

i can't be who i am now, if life's without you.

this is the first birthday of mine spent in the UK. a mixture of feelings.

but this is my 21st, how i wish i am at home with my family and beloved ones.

well, i know that life goes on no matter what. :)

thanks to everyone who is involved in my life throughout these 21 years.

a year older, i will be a year wiser. i promise. :)

i wish all to be in pink of health always. loves.

一切很美，只因有你。

感恩。

thank you.

p/s - 生日前一天，我在走路去上课的路途中摔了一跤。希望衰运全被摔走了。and thanks. u know who you are. :)

[Photo taken by Diana+ loaded with Fuji Provia 100F, medium format, cross processed.]

英国的秋天

2010-11-12T01:29:00.003Z

英国的秋天，
那片刚落下的枯叶
那不停吹来的秋风
那变幻多端的温度

这些，都不是我的家。
因为我家没有这样的枯叶，没有秋风，也没有变化多端的温度。

对啊，我好想家。

recent update:
courseworks are killing me, yes and this is why i am not updating oftenly. :(
went to the Bonfire in Nottingham last week. here's one of the fireworks picture im happy with.

erm, taken without tripod (i put my camera on top of a rubbish bin), not a perfect shot, but i like it. :)

p/s - 那天，爸爸说他每天都会想念他的宝贝女儿，让我真的哽咽了一下。

[Both photos taken with Olympus PEN E-PL1.]

抛物线

2010-10-29T01:57:00.002+01:00

i have been really really busy these days.
projects, assignments and courseworks. ~~(and dramas as well. oops.)~~

i am sorry that i didn't update my blog as usual as i used to. :(
and guess what, i haven't even start researching for photolabs who do film processing around nottingham. sigh, anybody can give me any guidance?

went to the cheshire oak designer outlet last week and had really great fun shopping there. lol. do not ask how much i have spent there, please.
here is one of the photos taken in the i-don't-know-where-is-it train station, named Stockport. lol.

and this train station comes with a platform number zero. yea, zero.
we thought we were supposed to bang the column in order to board the train, like the harry potter does. lol. non sense. but i was really surprised to see a platform zero. hahaha or maybe im just one of the kampung girl who hasn't done exploring the UK. lol.

recently i got really really addicted into Tanya Tsai's album, 抛物线. yea, i know it's not a new album, but still, it's super nice. hahaha. now i understand why she won the best female singer in taiwan. her songs are just, heart-touching.

aaaah. random much. lol.

p/s - don't think about only me, reverse the 'm' and think about we. yea, im annoyed by selfish people recently. lol.

(Photo taken by Olympus PEN E-PL1)

lomography pop 9

2010-10-07T23:43:00.005+01:00

i used to think that the multi-lens lomo cameras are kinda, erm, not too interesting.
that time ss family (my very best friends!) was having this multi-lens fever where lee ahmuk decided to buy a supersampler and ter simsim decided to buy the actionsampler.
so i thought, why not i give a try, since i was having some piggies to spend and i oni needed to top up a small amount.
so i chosen the POP-9!
kia su mah, both supersampler and actionsampler only have 4 lens, while pop9 has 9! lol.
since the black one looks really ugly, i bought the gold one instead. :D

even though the results were not as mesmerizing as the LC-A+ or Holga use to give, but i swear that Pop-9 is the most fun and interesting lomo camera i have ever had. seriously.

one of my favourite shots -

lesson of the story -
do not frame yourself. why not stand out of the circle and give yourself more choices? this is my current point of view for my future career. hahaha.

spent quite a lot of pounds recently in getting some stuffs. aiks,seriously wanna save for a new mattress, this current old one is causing me backache. :( and why mattresses are so expensive in the UK? all of them are at least £100 or more. sigh. and i want a new coat so i have a bit of variety (im wearing the same one to class daily), i want Uniqlo's heattech tees to keep me warm, i want the zara's ankle boots and anya hindmarch's tote bag.

lol okay. i shall be really really disciplined not to over spend. no shopping, no shopping.

p/s - the priority of mine when im in UK isn't my studies, but meals i have everyday. whenever im free, i'd be thinking of what to eat for next meal. =.=||| please do not ask me my weight.

p/s again - peer pressure is killing me. arghhhhh.

(Photo taken by Lomography Pop-9 loaded with Agfa Precisa CT 100, cross processed.)

living my life, in the UK.

2010-10-06T14:00:00.002+01:00

hello everybody.
no i did not forget my blog, of course. :)
spent almost three weeks for settling down, and i am still at the settling down stage. lol.

well, UK is good.
i was very impressed by the civic consciousness that the UK people have.

classes have started. as the chinese saying goes, things are tough at the beginning.
i'm trying my very best to adapt. aiks.

haven't been to many places in the UK tho.
to be precise, i have only been to the nottingham city and birmingham. lol.
nottingham city is boring (i think) and birmingham is heaven for me. (my friends said because i have not seen london yet.)

a sneak peak of photos taken in birmingham :)

departure. taken in broadmarsh. :D this is not in birmingham tho. it's nottingham. haha.

one of my favourite photos.

contradiction of modern and traditional architecture. the bullring and st martin's church.

st martin's. taken from the ground level. :)

the bullring market.

(all photos taken with Olympis E-PL1, 16:9 format, some with pinhole art filter.)

感恩

2010-09-14T17:13:00.003+01:00

二十四小时过后，我应该就在飞机上了。
好不容易撑到了现在，终于还是哭了。

前几个礼拜有一点小忙，不同的朋友，在不同的地方，用不同的方式为我饯行。
心里万分感激。

每一个转泪点都让我看见了真正关心我的人。
真的感恩。

我不是一个人孤身作战，因为我会带着你们的祝福到英国去的。
除了感恩，还是感恩。

祝愿大家身体健康，一切顺顺利利。

仁走了......

明年暑假，我们再相聚马来西亚！

再见！

(Photo taken by LC-A+ loaded with Lomography Redscale XR 50-200.)

单车

2010-09-09T06:33:00.004+01:00

难离难舍想抱紧些
茫茫人生好象荒野
如孩儿能伏于爸爸的肩膊
谁要下车

难离难舍总有一些

常情如此不可堆卸

任世间再冷酷

想起这单车还有幸福可惜

陈奕迅《单车》

p/s - less than a week time and i will be in UK edi. a mixture of feelings. but i know i will survive! :)

(Photo taken by DianaMini loaded with Fuji 200, half frame mode.)

happy birthday, Malaysia!

2010-08-30T18:18:00.002+01:00

(Photo by Holga 135BC loaded with Lomography X-Pro Slide 100, cross processed.)

it's the 53rd Independence Day of Malaysia's.
i still remember during school time, we were taught to love Malaysia, we were taught to live in harmony.
still remember how excited we were, decorating our classrooms with Jalur Gemilang during August every year? (lol, i did, really.)

but now, as i grow up, i realized that things are pretty different.
however, i really hope Malaysia could REALLY get rid of racism, as what 1Malaysia has suggested.

then, i can proudly say that us Malaysians live in a multi-racial society, peacefully when im UK. :)

RAKYAT DIDAHULUKAN, PENCAPAIAN DIUTAMAKAN.

rakyat refers to us, ALL malaysians right? so people, stop the racism. all races tolerate and contribute to the country, it's undeniable, so stop the uncivilized act.

(Photo by Olympus PEN E-PL1 with Pinhole art filter.)

p/s - and happy birthday to Mr. Wong Wai Kiat, who shares the same birthday with Malaysia! :D

灯

2010-08-29T17:21:00.004+01:00

灯。

(taken by LC-A+ loaded with Agfa APX 400, black and white processed.)

Home of the Day by jhen89

2010-08-17T15:33:00.005+01:00

after 2 years plus of lomography, finally.....

Home of the Day! 17.08.2010

Home of the Day by jhen89

"She seems to be gazing at the sky more often these days, anticipating something magical would happen. And with her Lomo LC-A, it’s impossible to miss anything!"

thanks LSI for the home of the day award. and the 50 Piggies. :D

now my dream came true. getting the diana mini white soon! hooooraaaaaaaaay!

THE FUTURE IS ANALOGUE

p/s - i didn't know i got this until i found some of the lomographers congratulating me on my lomohome. lol!

(Photo by LC-A+ loaded with Agfa CT Precisa 100, cross processed.)

原来，

2010-08-14T19:06:00.004+01:00

要离开一个自己生活了将近21年的地方，是这样的心情。

这心情就好像想当初一个人升上圣玛丽中学，

一个人到国民服务营，

一个人到诺大念书，

只是现在，这感觉是以前的好几倍。

没有办法啦，决定是自己做的，这条路无论如何我都得撑下去。

对自己说，对岸就在那儿，跨过去就行了。

毕竟，人生会有很多转泪点的。

跨过去就行了。

p/s - 不哭不哭，还有一个月才飞。不哭不哭，出国深造是一件好事！我要努力考个first class光宗耀祖。哈哈哈。

(Photo by Diana+ loaded with Fuji Provia 100F, medium format, cross processed.)

from the ground level.

2010-08-13T10:35:00.003+01:00

is so much fun! :)

lomography is getting more and more popular these days. lol.
yes, it means more and more people are sharing the lomo fun.
and more people to 'jio' for buying films in bulk. XD

will be making an order in lomography.com to get high ISO films. anybody has anything to buy?
if u are interested in slide films too, let me know. i have a list and maybe we can buy them in a bulk?
let me know. :)

jom, let's lomo!

(Photo by LC-A+ loaded with Fuji Sensia 200, cross processed.)

goodbye joe, he gotta go, me oh my oh.

2010-08-09T19:03:00.005+01:00

Jambalaya by the Carpenters is the song keeps running in my head now.
yes, it's a nice and relaxing song. search it on youtube if you are interested. lol.

well, flight is booked, VISA is done, the date of departure is coming so soon. :(
it's less than 2 months now.
friends asked if i feel emo to leave. well, it was my decision to transfer to the UK, i know clearly about all these, so i can only say i have no regrets. :)

PC Fair was last week and i finally bought my lovely oly pen pen. lol. yes, i meant the Olympus PEN E-PL1. it was kinda expensive, but its performance did not disappoint me, luckily. phew. some sample shots i have taken with my pen pen -

my first trial with water drop photography. didn't have any supporting lights at the back, so i had to take this really brightly to avoid the shadows. it's still a noob shot, lol. will definitely try again!

p/s - analogue and digital, i love both now. :)

(1st photo taken by UWS loaded with Kodak 100VS, cross processed.
2nd and 3rd taken by Olympus PEN E-PL1, in 16:9 format.)

*i really love the 16:9 :D

*son of a gun, we'll have big fun on the bayou*

something new.

2010-08-04T08:51:00.002+01:00

a few months back, ahmuk bought me a micro 110 holga from thailand.
she also bought me 2 rolls of 110 films for it.
it's not hard to get a micro 110 holga in malaysia, but it's extremely hard to get the 110 film. lol. im just so lucky that she bought me 2 rolls of negatives. :)

even though shots taken aren't as attractive as slides taken with other cameras.
but still, i'm really happy seeing those pictures.
just because i'm one of the lucky ones to try out this camera. wahaha.
thanks ahmuk.

here are some shots to share -

for the full album, it's here

p/s - leaving to UK in less than 2 months time. kawan-kawan, please find me yamcha? lol.

(Photos taken by Micro 110 Holga loaded with Kodak 400.)

desire vs reality

2010-07-30T18:45:00.007+01:00

recently my friends and i often get into this topic while we are chatting.
the desire. and the reality.
desire doesn't only include dreams, but it also cover the hopes, wishes and expectations as well.
dreams are big, hopes are great, wishes are good and expectations are high.
but the reality always hit them down. just too bad. :(

i think this is when good characteristics play their roles.
we need determination to carry on, motivation to burn the spirit, toleration to understand the situation, etc etc.
and finally, it's about faith.
i always believe that if we have faith in ourselves, nothing is impossible.
just like before the Wright brothers invented aeroplanes, who ever agree that flying is possible?
they must had HUGE faith in themselves. lol.

don't restrain yourselves from dreaming BIG. we only live once, there's no second chance for you to dream.
and if you have found your desire, have faith in yourselves and work towards it.
make your desire a winner of reality instead of a victim of reality.

now, what is your desire? or what are your desires? :)

love the convocation scene in 'Drumline' where the principal tells,

'Always believe that, YOU CAN FLY!'.

p/s - thanks to leeahmuk who made me tak boleh tahan, at last i bought a pop9 gold. not with me yet, will be collecting it from her next week. my next lomography desire - Diana Mini White. im writing articles in lomography.com to get more piggies! :) anyway, im selling my dianaF+ (without flash) and Fuji Instax Mini 7s, please leave a message if you are interested. why? because i think i can't be able to bring them to UK and why not sharing the lomo fun? PC Fair is near and i hope to get my pen pen soon. muahahaha!

(Photo by Fuji Instax Mini 7s, sharpness edited with Flickr.com's picnik.)

Departures*おくりびと

2010-07-26T19:21:00.006+01:00

'Departures', known as 'おくりびと' in japanese, was the (japanese, of course) movie i have watched last few days, alone, and got touched.
this movie was the winner of 2009 academy award for best foreign language movie.
this movie didn't make me cry like i did for 'Echoes of the Rainbows'.
but it led me into thoughts for a few days.

what is death for u?
a lost? an end? a relief?
or is it a gain? a start? a pain?
we know that death is a definite event of life, but how should we face it?
this movie really changed my point of views for death.
u got to watch this movie to feel what i feel. :)

besides that, i learn to appreciate people around me more, after watching this movie.
appreciate them, before they are gone, forever.
what can be worse than death?
it's time to think, and to put down those hatred, jealousy and greed.

after all, it's really an excellent movie.
one point to mention - music of the movie was composed and arranged by Joe Hisaishi.
beautiful music by Joe Hisaishi

this is the theme song of 'Departures', instrumental version. if u want the vocal version of the song, just search for 'AI - Okuribito' in youtube.

愛は刃物より

胸につきささる

そして「いつかまた会おうの。」と...
Love pierces the heart
More so than any knife
And then saying "Let's meet again some day"...

will i be missed if i die someday?
appreciate people around u, my friends. :)

p/s - im sorry if this post sounds really sad. lol. i just wanted to introduce this good movie to u. :) and i realized that movies with slower pace are more suitable for me. lol.

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happiness in life.

2010-07-19T19:38:00.002+01:00

life recently is good.
passionate is the best word to describe the current me.
see the description i wrote for myself on the left.
lomography, marching bands, wind orchestra.
what could be better than having all three of them during my summer break?

lomography is one of the hobbies i picked up during my early university days. it's been around 2 years, i think? and im still loving it. :) ask me how many cameras do i have now. and i am still considering to expand the collection. muahaha.

marching bands and wind orchestra. i've skipped the national competition for two years and last week, i drove all the way to shah alam alone, to watch this year's national competition. (and luckily it was held in selangor this time.) found back my love and interest for marching bands. awww. i remember ahmuk and i promised each other that we will both travel to the states one day to watch DCI Championship. haha.

erm, no i don't hate my studies. i love the course that i'm doing.
civil engineering is my dream since form 4. and i proved my passion for it through my results. HAHA.
yay, first class! :P

even though boredom strikes, once in a while during this summer break,
but i'm still feeling happy. this is the happiest summer break ever? haha.
with him, best buddies, lomo and bands around. awwww. how nice.

'爱你所选，选你所爱'

快乐和幸福，原来就是因为爱。

love what you choose,choose what you love.

now i know, happiness is all about love. :)

p/s - gonna go for Nanta Cookin' show with my bffs on this saturday! wohoho! that's why i said, life's so good now.

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music and i

2010-07-14T10:44:00.002+01:00

i'm always glad that i was given a chance to have so so much exposures about music.
well, i used to take piano lesson, but wasn't really determined about it. :(
i was a percussionist years back during the band days, but i have only limited skills, i think. lol.
even though i'm a poor musician, but i do appreciate music. :)
string orchestra, wind orchestra, chamber music, ensemble, marching band, vocal music etc etc. i love them all.

p/s - just realized how unbearable a person's personality can be. aiks. however, this reminds me to appreciate my true friends more. :)

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a feather duster.

2010-07-07T17:33:00.003+01:00

no doubt. this is a feather duster.

erm. let's see how many serious readers i have here.
let me know what do you feel of this photo by leaving me a comment, please?

p/s - boredom kills, seriously. :(

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passion and memories.

2010-06-29T09:35:00.004+01:00

attended the St Mary's School Band 1st concert last saturday.
i burst into tears during the encore pieces.
flashbacks of those days kept playing in my mind.
my seniors, juniors and bandmates of my batch,
the practices, parades and performances,
the tears, sweats and joy,
the obstacles, passion, and teamwork.
all of these kept playing in my mind during the concert.
i felt really touched when i came to realize that the band has gone this far.
the girls have made it. they have made the school and the ex-members proud.

as the saying goes,
rome wasn't built in one day.
years back, st mary's band was still a band that people would look down on.
but now, the band has got much better.
the band didn't just improve in a blink of eye. it was the passion and efforts by all the members throughout these years.
and not to forget our dedicated instructor, Mr. Sunny Hoh.
Sir, 7 years ago you came to take over the band. there were ups and downs throughout these 7 years. even i myself have thought of giving up. but u never.
u even encouraged us to carry on.
we are glad that we have you, for these 7 years, sir.
i'm here to express my appreciation to all members of the band and Mr. Sunny Hoh, thanks for bringing me such a wonder night, a walk down my memory lane.

and thanks, for bringing back my passion.
life is so wonderful if we are living with passion. :)

congratulations St Mary's School Band!
one peak conquered! let's achieve another higher peak.
us ex-members will always be with u.
anyway, ex-members, something is cooking, please join THIS.
please leave your emails and contact numbers in the discussion board so i can send out my proposal to u ASAP.
a tough challenge is awaiting, but i have faith and passion.
and i hope u too. :)

a walk down my memory lane.

p/s - when i received the sms from sir on saturday midnight, i almost burst into tears again. thanks mr. sunny. thanks. salute! :)

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life*人生

2010-06-23T19:23:00.002+01:00

每个人的人生，都有一段片刻在等，那叫做过渡期。我安慰自己
每个人的人生，都有一段考验在等，那叫做别放弃。我激励自己
-严爵《困在台北》
there are blank moments in one's life, and that is the transitional period. i console myself.
there are challenges in one's life, and that is the determination period. i motivate myself.

the sun sets, then rises. and it sets again.
still, life goes on no matter what right? :)

i'm currently learning how to let go things.
especially anger.
i need more positive energy. :)

*determination period means the period where determination is needed the most. lol. i kno, bad translation, i kno.

p/s - as i kno, results will be out like, reaaaaaaaaaaaal soon. i admit, i did not do well in the exams. my bad my bad. :( anyway, the Olympus PEN E-PL1 is on the top of my wishlist now. ish. this little micro four thirds camera is poisonous!

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happy father's day!

2010-06-19T19:05:00.002+01:00

dear papa,

Happy Father's Day.
i ❤ you.

here's a song for u, my superman (无敌铁金刚) papa!

不论有多少困难让我通通吃掉

总有一天我会得到力量

thanks for the words of encouragement when im uncertain.
thanks for always believing in me and my decisions.
thanks for always forgiving me when im wrong.
thanks for everything, papa. :)

papa and mama. ❤

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believe.

2010-06-18T19:42:00.003+01:00

heard Simon Yam (任达华) on myfm just now.
he quoted one of the very meaningful sentences from the movie, Echoes of the Rainbow (岁月神偷).

"做人，总要信......"
"to live, we must believe...." he said.

true enough.

when u feel obstacles are hitting u down,
or life just doesn't seem to be going your way,
always remember this quote.
we must believe, to live on.
just believe in yourselves. :)
because we are not gonna live once more again.

做人，总要信......

一步难，一步佳......难一步，佳一步......

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united and strong.

2010-06-15T15:00:00.005+01:00

i remember someone once asked me, why did u choose civil engineering?
for me, teamwork is one of the reasons. :)
my involvement in school band during high school actually made a huge contribution in this.
the SMK St. Mary's school band was not really good.
in fact, the condition was really kinda bad when i first joined.
imagine having only 7 to 9 members attended the holiday practices. do u call that bad? :P
oh well, im still glad that i was part of the team.
during our time, the committees worked really hard to get whatever was possible.
we joined competitions even though we knew we sucked (so badly), we went for national day parade march pasts, we attended lessons, music exchange sessions, training camps etc etc.
of course, we got hit down by obstacles too sometimes.
to maintain a band is hard, moreover, we were trying to improve it.
when we were on the verge of giving up, our coach, told us not to.
he encouraged us to carry on. and we did. :)
when i left the band, the band really improved, i wouldn't say a lot, but they really improved.

sometimes im thankful that i joined the band. because i've learnt a lot.
i've learnt how to maximize my determination when i encounter tough situations.
and most importantly, i learnt to play in a team.
or in other words, i learnt to appreciate the beauty of teamwork. :)
flutes, clarinets, saxophones, horns, trumpets, euphoniums, trombones and tubas having different tunes and tones, playing their respective scores, and by combining them, a beautiful piece of music is produced.
amazing, i think.

for construction, the same theory applies.
no single engineer is able to build a building alone.

'united and strong',
this is the first line of our school song.
yes, get united and strong.
you will be amazed by teamwork.

'united and strong'

nevertheless, my involvement in school band has brought me a group of really good friends. :)

p/s - the girls are gonna have their first concert ever! 26th June 2010, 8p.m, St. Mary's school hall. anybody interested to tag along? let me know. :)

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Echoes of the Rainbow*岁月神偷

2010-06-09T17:11:00.007+01:00

之前在Facebook看见很多朋友给了这电影很高的评价，
不过那时因为准备考试，电影下档了都没有机会去看。
最后，在朋友再度介绍之下，买了DVD 来看。

昨晚一个人把这电影给看完了。
这部大概2小时长的电影，让我哭足1小时。
看完后眼泪还是无法停止。

《岁月神偷》是一部很简单的电影。
没有高科技的点缀，也不是什么庞大制作。
不过，导演的拍摄方式非常细腻，
有好几幕，看到画面，我就直接流泪了。

如果你问我，对这部电影有何感想，
我觉得我回答不到。
这部电影带来了巨大的内心波动，百感交集，
说真的，我到现在都还没能用言语形容，那时什么感觉。

“在幻变的生命里，岁月，原是最大的小偷......”
仔细想一想，我们在那不曾停止的岁月里，得到了什么？
而它，又从我们身上偷走了什么？

不告诉你们故事大纲，如果有兴趣，你们自己看。
这真的是一部好电影。
一个人看，一个人沉思。
再和家人一起看。

在此送上电影主题曲和片段。 :)

不回想不回答

不回憶不回眸

反正也不回頭

-李治廷《岁月轻狂》

p/s - im sorry for all my readers who don't read chinese. basically this is a post regarding the movie, "Echoes of the Rainbow" that i've watched yesterday. I truly recommend this movie. It's a simple movie, but will lead you to think in a great depth. As said in the movie, 'in this unpredictable life, time, no doubt is the biggest thief...'. =)

“一步难，一步佳......难一步，佳一步......”

人生不就是这样？

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life has an absolute*生命有一种绝对

2010-06-07T19:33:00.006+01:00

想要征服的世界始终都没有改变

那地上无声蒸发我的泪

黑暗中期待光线生命有一种绝对

等待我请等待我

直到约定融化成笑颜

-五月天《生命有一种绝对》

life's pretty good recently. because slacking is the only thing i do. :P

oh well, did a lil research on digital cameras. Olympus PEN E-PL1 is really awesome! will try to get one before going UK. but since it's really expensive, i don't put much hopes on it. if i couldn't get one, im still happy to stick with my lomo cameras. kakaka.

for lomography, my latest desires are the Diana Mini and Olympus mjμ-II. an used Olympus mjμ-II (with remote control) only costs RM199 in lowyat forum. aaaa. the deal is really tempting. well well, if im a super rich woman, i would love to get the Fuji Instax Mini 25 too. lighter in weight and better in focus compared to my current 7S.

oh well, i won't be buying any cameras these few months. :( im broke. and if i have money, it would be fund for the E-PL1.

oh well. did i tell u that mayday's concert was really awesome? ahmuk, sim, yin and i really enjoyed ourselves. :)

between, u should try listening to Yen-J (严爵). a talented young singer.

p/s - lisa ono is awesome too! aaaaaa. what's more perfect than listening to lisa ono alone,with a glass of wine? eh no. i don't drink at home. :P

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突然好想你

2010-06-05T20:51:00.003+01:00

刚刚从[2010五月天變形DNA[無限放大版]世界巡回大馬演唱會]回来。
震撼的舞台，一流的音乐，高昂的气氛。这场演唱会，真的几乎完美。
曲目也是很棒。
整场演唱会里，让我最有感触的歌曲，竟然是《突然好想你》

突然好想一个人的感觉，相信大家都有过吧。

"最怕空氣突然安靜　最怕朋友突然的關心

最怕回憶　突然翻滾絞痛著　不平息

最怕突然　聽到你的消息

最怕此生　已經決心自己過　沒有你　卻又突然　聽到你的消息"，阿信唱。

心酸。
真的很酸。
曾经何时，我们都很想念那个人。
虽然已经走出伤悲，不过阿信依然令我脑海里那一段回忆泛起了一阵涟漪。
那心酸，我相信我们都忘记不了。

突然好想你，你会在哪里？

p/s - 叮当的唱功真的不是普通的利害，她和阿信合唱《拥抱》竟然让我起鸡皮疙瘩。另外，《倔强》也让我想起了中学时期为了铜乐队而坚持的那一段过去。《憨人》，《志明与春娇》让我发现，五月天的歌，陪我渡过了很多岁月。谢谢你们，五月天。还有，五月天那3位和音老师也真的很厉害！

p/s again - 认真的男人，真的很帅。阿信，真的很有魅力。啊~~~~怎么可以那么帅？哈哈哈。其实其他团员也不赖。

p/s again and again - 我真的从《突然好想你》的那一段走出来了。现在，还是《天使》比较适合我？哈哈哈哈。阿信真的是名副其实的摇滚诗人。

p/s again and again and again (haha) - 最近有几位朋友都因为感情问题而陷入低潮，朋友们啊，

"你值得真正的快乐你应该脱下你穿的保护色

为什麼失去了还要被惩罚呢

能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻重新开始活著"

期待你们重新开始活着的那一天！加油！

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N97mini 拍的（没有拍得很好，请原谅。）：

阿信，就真的那么近。哈哈哈哈。

再见五月天！下次演唱会再见！

make a wish, make a wish.

2010-06-03T12:24:00.006+01:00

make a wish, make a wish.

any wishes in your mind now?

may all your wishes come true! :)

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recent update.

2010-05-29T20:11:00.004+01:00

on some kind of major mood swings recently.
aiks.
car got knocked and the fella just ran off like that.
the condition of my car isn't as bad as the accident happened 2 years back,
but i got really pissed off by the uncivilized guys.
WNR 2676 was the car, with 3 uncivilized chinese guys. please do me a favor, pray for them to be safe on the road, because i always believe in karma.

oh well, sunway construction offered me an internship position.
but i rejected. because menara sunway is just so far away.
i kno i might sound stupid for rejecting such a great offer, but still, what to do?
i chose to spare more time for my family and friends before im off to UK.

haven't really picked up something to do during the summer.
definitely not working like last summer again, lol. i need some really good rests. :)
current plan is to have a major cleanup for my wardrobe, mommy said i should give away my old clothes to the charity.
next, i would really wanna have a lomowall in my room. my room is quite plain still, so i really wan a lomowall. XD
next, i would really really really like to do lotsa lotsa lotsa shopping.

last but not least. to spend more time with you. :)

oh ya, didn't i tell you that i just permed my hair? i think i look like an aunty now. but somebody says it's alright, so it's alright. HAHAHAHAHA.

p/s - 人们天生就懂得伪装。不是吗？别再用美丽的文字遮盖自己的过错了，我对自己说。哎。

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p/s again - i miss my lomo cameras a lot suddenly. to all who are holding them, please take good care of them. :(

p/s again and again - true friends really last forever. aiks. lee soo huay, ter mei sim, ter mei mei and low yin yin, me miss u all so so so so so muchie!

goodbye 3 years.

2010-05-27T18:58:00.004+01:00

days in The University of Nottingham, Malaysia Campus are in past tenses now.
3 years is the duration, of me studying in UNMC.
throughout these 3 years, i have really seen a lot, and learnt as much.
i have also gained a lot, but of course, there were losses as well.

dear all lecturers and friends, thank you for everything you've given me in these 3 years.
thanks for the supports, understanding, tolerances, guidances, patience etc etc etc.
you have changed me into a better person. :)

the probability of meeting somebody is like 1 over 6.8 billions,
hence, i believe it was fate which brought us together.

and now, these 3 years of my life in UNMC have came to an end.
the memories are priceless. how i wish to have enough memory to actually store them all, every single second of it.

it's always hard to say goodbye. :(

p/s - afterall, this blog post is applicable only if i get to transfer to the UK campus successfully next semester. hahaha.

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sharing*纯分享

2010-05-23T17:27:00.002+01:00

p/s - exam ending soon. woohoo.

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自己的步伐*my own pace

2010-05-11T20:34:00.003+01:00

有时候，真的很想抛开别人眼光，压力。
我想掌控自己的步伐。

如果'比较'这个动词不存在，该有多好。

sometimes i really wish to abandon the peer pressure.
i want my own pace.

only if the verb, 'compare' doesn't exist in the world.

p/s - exam is still on. and damn it. Geotechnics 2 really killed me kao-kao. T.T

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mama.

2010-05-08T19:57:00.005+01:00

Mama thank you for who I am
Thank you for all the things I'm not
Forgive me for the words unsaid
For the times
I forgot

Mama remember all my life
You showed me love,You sacrificed
Think of those young and early days
How I've changed
along the way

And I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
I miss you, I miss you

Mama forgive the times you cried
Forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused
And I've been wrong
Dry your eyes

Mama I hope this makes you smile
I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made
How I've changed
Along the way
And I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you, Mama

>

-by Il Divo "Mama"

Mama, I love you.
Happy Mother's Day and i hope you can be a happy mother everyday!

p/s - wanted to 'extract' only one of the verses of the lyrics to my blog. but i couldn't. because all verses are as meaningful. =D

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sunset in UNMC

2010-05-02T08:18:00.004+01:00

sunset in UNMC. single and double exposure. :D
heart it.
guess me gonna miss it when im in the UK.
oh well, the sun still sets in the UK,
just that the people and feelings in UNMC make them different.

p/s - countdown to 7 days! good luck all people! strike for the best!

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share.

2010-04-30T18:05:00.002+01:00

wanna share with you guys one of my favourite shots from the recent rolls of films.
=D

"the past has enriched our lives."

“过去丰富了我们的人生”

p/s - exam is approaching real soon! best of luck to all! :)

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i feel good.

2010-04-30T05:14:00.004+01:00

the postman came early in the morning.
and i got my 4 rolls of films developed.
=D
i feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel good.

waking up in the morning, with the excitement that lomography gives.

lomography never fails to make me happy. :D

p/s - it's just that the exam kills the happiness. aaaaaaa.

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感谢你*thanks all

2010-04-23T07:49:00.003+01:00

又是接近学年末端，
it's again the end of academic year,

想跟在我这3年大学生涯在我身边的人说，
wanna tell all who were with me throughout these 3 years,

谢谢你。
THANK YOU!

3年里，我成长了许多，学到了很多，也看到了很多。
during these 3 years, i have changed a lot, learnt a lot and saw a lot.

感谢这一路来，有你！
im glad that i have you along this journey!

p/s - 下学期要去英国了，朋友，别忘了我啊！

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0415 生日快乐

2010-04-15T10:47:00.005+01:00

nick gor gor a.k.a. kumar papa,

生日快乐！
今年生日最想给你的祝福语是

前程锦绣！

两个月后，大家各奔东西了，我们要为我们自己的生活加油！

p/s - 去UK后，kumar仔我还是会继续养下去的，别忘了我啊！ :) 还有，我自认为我的lomo拍得你很帅。哈哈。

朋友*friend

2010-04-09T19:06:00.002+01:00

最近跟阿木时常谈起友情的话题。
recently, ah muk and i keep discussing issues about friendship.

在大学快要3年了，所谓大学就是一个迷你社会，
i've been studying in the uni for almost 3 years. well, as said, uni is like a mini society.

这3年里当然我也看了很多。
i have seen a lot, throughout these years.

学到了很多。
and of course, learnt a lot.

大学生活让我学会了怎么样对自己好。
uni life reminds me of treating myself better.

因为，你对人家好，人家也未必对你好。
because, even though you're good to people, people maybe not as good.

将心比心，在大学算是罕见了，可想而知，在现实社会更是寥寥无几。
being good to all people is already considered rare in uni, thus it's worse in the real society.

我们的人生，可以分成很多阶段，
life can be divided up to different stages,

而不同阶段，会有不同的人出现，也有不同的人离开。
people come and go during these stages.

这样想，或许看得比较开。
by thinking like this, you will be more optimistic.

=)

感谢所有在不同阶段出现的朋友。
thanks to all friends who were/are/gonna be involved in my life.

p/s - 谁是真心对我好，谁不是，我还分得出。 =)

(Photo by Diana+ with Kodak E100 120mm, cross processed.)

说*say

2010-04-03T17:43:00.004+01:00

那个欲言又止的感觉，怪怪的。
the feeling of say-not, is weird.

或许是偶像剧看太多了吧。
perhaps, i think it's due to excessive watching of dramas,

总是希望有一个人，能够真正了解我。
i always hope there's somebody, who really really understands me.

我不用说，那个人全都知道。
without saying a word, somebody would know everything.

那一个人，存在吗？
does this somebody ever exist?

就算你不是那个人，请你答应我
even if you're not this somebody, please promise me

如果你不想听，那么就不要问。
don't ask me why, if you not gonna listen.

我也是人，我也是会累。
im an ordinary human too, i get tired sometimes too.

*只是突发而想，没有必要对号入座。
*this is just one of the random posts, not referring to anyone.

p/s - finally im KINDA done with my courseworks and projects for the semester. hmmm. that signifies the end of another academic year? no, not yet! i have finals awaiting for me. oh well, study study. =)

p/s again - omg omg omg. i think this is the 1234567890987654321th time me listening to 刘子千's album. and i still find it very niceeeeeeeeee! woooohooooo.

(Photo by LC-A+ with Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.)

us,honesty*你我他,坦白

2010-03-28T18:14:00.005+01:00

he was drunk in the restaurant,
那天，在酒家看见了喝醉酒的他，

expressing his hidden anger and pressure.
发泄着他隐藏起来的脾气与压力。

finally, he was honest to himself.
他，终于对自己坦白了。

i was alone in the car,
今天，在车上想起了孤单的自己，

thinking about some hidden memories.
忆起一段不为人知过去。

ah, finally, i was honest to myself too.
啊，我也对自己坦白了。

me and him, have found our way of being honest to ourselves, how about you?
他和我，都找到了对自己坦白的方法，你呢

i really like to drive alone sometimes,
有时很喜欢一个人驾车，小小的空间，

in the tiny space, it will only be me and myself.
只有我和我自己。

well, life is like driving,
人生就好想驾车一样，

look at the back sometimes,
偶尔望一望过去，

then move forward.
再继续向前行驶。

isn't it?
不是吗？

p/s - 刘子千刘子千刘子千刘子千刘子千刘子千刘子千刘子千刘子千刘子千刘子千刘子千. ahhhh im so so so so so addicted to his songs! :P

(Photo by UWS with Agfa APX 400, black and white processed.)

colorful memories*彩色回忆

2010-03-25T14:54:00.006Z

how i wish, my heart can only accommodate colorful memories..
如果我的心只能收藏彩色回忆，该有多好？

"记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的"

-梁文音《哭过就好了》

p/s - addicted to 刘子千 recently. heheee. :)

(Photo by LC-A+ with Fuji Sensia 200, cross process.)

你走了。you left.

2010-03-18T15:03:00.005Z

当焦点不在我的时候

when the attention isn't on me,

你，走了。

you left.

剩下我，

i'm alone.

只有我自己。

with myself.

我比较喜欢我自己

i like myself better.

没有你的自己。

myself without you.

面具。

mask.

p/s - haven't been updating as often as before. courseworks and assignments are killing me. sigh. and im waving bye to a LC-A Instant Back. annual dinner kills too. my wallet.

(Photo by LC-A+ with Agfa Propack 200)

life's good.

2010-03-02T16:36:00.004Z

life's good.
if you love yourself! =D

don't hate yourself, because that's you.
you are supposed to love yourself more than anyone does.

last week i went to dongzen temple and saw them promoting this -

"Three Goods @ 三好"

说好话，
speak good words
做好事，
do good things
存好心
think good thoughts

i think u will be pretty familiar with this if you've watched the HK TVB Drama "宫心计"
=)

p/s - will be trying Clinique. because i only want simple 3-steps. hahaha. and please click on my ads people, i desperately want a new wallet! (and also the LC-A+ instant back! please. LOL!). keep reading people! keep reading!

(Photo by LC-A+ with Fuji Sensia 200, cross processed.)

'Happy Contented'*祝你知足常乐

2010-02-24T07:52:00.002Z

was listening to the radio that day and heard something like this-
那天在电台听到了这些：

never a person is gonna walk with you forever,
没有一个人可以永远陪着你,

never a position is gonna hold you high forever,
没有一个权位可以永远让你高高在上,

never a thing is gonna be good forever,
没有一个东西可以永远完好无缺,

so, be contented with what you have now.
所以,我们要知足.

in my opinion, being contented doesn't mean you restrict yourselves from improvement.
对我而言,知足并没有教我们裹足不前,

being contented is to appreciate the present, and achieve higher for the future.
知足教我们珍惜当下,创造未来.

it's almost the end of the CNY, hereby i wish you
趁现在还是新年,我祝福大家

Happy Contented!
知足常乐

achieve higher!
"步步高升”

p/s - 防人之心真的不可无。所谓的好人，有吗？

(Photo by Holga 135 BC, Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.)

myself*自己

2010-02-19T17:02:00.002Z

myself in the mirror.

the more i see myself,

i hate myself sometimes.

i know my weaknesses,

but i just can't change myself,

sigh.

then i realized, people who loves me, would tolerate my weaknesses.

i will just need to ignore those who don't.

afterall, life is still simple.

p/s - Lomography gonna launch their new product on this coming wednesday. guess what? it's an instant back for LC-A+ i heard. wooohoooo! i wan that! =)

(Photo by LC-A+ with Fuji Provia 100F, cross processed.)

new header.

2010-02-15T14:45:00.002Z

new header, for this new lunar year. =)

learn to love people, LOVE!

❤

Gong Xi Fa Cai to all my readers!

p/s - is picking my post-CNY header. wohohoho. let's see.

Happy Chinese New Year*新年快乐

2010-02-12T16:04:00.003Z

the spring is here again.
春节又到。

Happy Chinese New Year!
新年快乐！

this CNY, let's learn to love.
这新年，让我们学会爱。

love everyone and everything around you.
爱你身边所有的人事物

because you won't know, when are they gonna leave you.
因为你不会晓得，他们几时会离开你。

p/s - home is always the best-est place on earth. agree?

(Photo by LC-A+ with Fuji Sensia 200)

we were not honest enough*我们都不够坦白

2010-02-05T16:37:00.006Z

growing up
长大了

striving for dreams and wealth
追逐梦想，名利

the reality made us dishonest
现实世界我们都忘了如何坦白

we were not honest
我们都不坦白

but we did not lie
可是我们没有撒谎，

thus we shall not be guilty
所以我们都没有错。

we were just not honest enough
我们只是不坦白

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there are things which need determination.
原来有些东西，该坚持的还是得坚持。

there are also things, which need honesty.
该坦白的我们都该坦白。

p/s - thinking back, it was like a drama. i will keep this as part of my memories, forever. =)

(Photo by Holga 135 BC with Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.)

store room*货舱

2010-02-04T16:13:00.005Z

our hearts are like store rooms.
其实我们的心都像货舱。

they come, and they leave.
有人来，有人走。

“It doesn’t matter whether something can last as long as the sky and the earth.
What really matters is whether you’ve ever possessed it.”
really?
难道真的要不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有吗？

now i know, the most important is that we learn to appreciate.
我懂了，原来最重要的是学会珍惜。

p/s - i think time passes too too fast. im now in year 2 sem 2. foundation was like only yesterday. argh!

love is easy*原来幸福很简单

2010-02-01T14:24:00.002Z

just like this.
就这样。

(Photo by LC-A+ with Fuji Provia 100F, cross processed.)

p/s - dun ask! the photo above does not reflect my current status. =) always proud to be single weh. =P

it's CNY again*又是新年

2010-01-30T17:30:00.003Z

a season to celebrate togetherness.
一个团聚的日子。

be healthy, and happy.
愿大家安康，开心。

(Photo by Holga 135 BC, Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.)

p/s - abandoned my blog for quite a while because i was having my finals. not too much to comment about, they are already in past tenses. =)

她爱你 *she loves you.

2010-01-17T09:37:00.004Z

有一个人，打电话给她，她会说不用浪费电话钱；
如果不打电话给她，她会担心。
there's someone, who wants to hear you, but she will never admit.

有一个人，每一天的菜单可以为你而更改，
你喜欢的，她说，她也喜欢。
there's someone, likes everything you like, no matter what.

有一个人，在你生病的时候，
不眠不休，毫无怨言，只是想你快快好起来。
there's someone, always there for you whenever you need her.

有一个人，明明不舍得，
可是却逞强地说，你长大了，你走吧!
there's someone, who let you go when you've grown up.

她，是我们的妈妈。
someone, is our mom.

她的过去，现在，未来都有你。
you are in her past, present and future.

而你呢？你的未来规划，有她在内吗？
and how about your future? is her included?

她爱你.
she loves you.

p/s - give your mama a call now and let her know you love her! =D talk about whatever, your call will make her day, definitely. if she's just around you, give her a hug!

(Photo by LC-A+, Kodak E100GX, cross processed.)

rest well.

2010-01-16T10:49:00.003Z

really wish to have a good rest.
not now, but after the exam.

ahhhhh i hope im doing good for my finals.
first class here i comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. =D

p/s - my LC-A+ is now my best shopping companion. couldn't stop snapping. ahhh.

(Photo by LC-A+ with Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.)

a gift for myself.

2010-01-12T13:02:00.002Z

bought one of these for myself last month.
and im loving it.
muahaha.

Photo by Lomo LC-A+ with Agfa ProPack 200.

p/s - one down, three more to go. wish me luck for my exams. =D

♥

2010-01-08T09:27:00.001Z

by Holga 135BC with Fuji Astia 100F, cross processed.

argh.

2010-01-05T17:13:00.003Z

couldn't stop watching this.
aiks. i think i've posted this before here but i got to post it again.
because they are so good!

those photos of KLWMBC'09 reminds me of KLWMBC'08 which was really wonderful for me.
i started to miss all my thai friends.
wonder how are they now. =)

p/s - 这个暑假很想很想去续缘，不知道还来得及吗？

long exposure.

2010-01-04T10:15:00.004Z

Jalan Ampang, 18-11-09. =D

(by Holga 135BC with Fuji Astia 100F, cross processed.)

KL in red.

2010-01-03T14:52:00.002Z

by Diana+ with Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.

amazed

2010-01-01T16:35:00.002Z

never been so amazed by a song for so so long.
鸡皮疙瘩都起来了。
的确是一把好声音!

p/s - She's Shuo. a talented but not so famous singer in Taiwan. =)

happy new year!

2009-12-31T16:00:00.001Z

2010, a brand new year.
live up your dreams!
may all your dreams come true!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

(photo taken by Holga 135BC with Fuji Provia 100F, cross processed.)

学习接受*learn to accept

2009-12-29T17:36:00.002Z

was watching CCTV with papa last Sunday and heard this -

阴阳。
Yin Yang.

有阴就有阳。
There's good or bad faces for everything.

人也一样。
same goes to human.

有好也有坏。
there are good ones, and bad ones.

自己理想中的完美社会根本就不成立。
a perfect world never exist.

要提醒自己，好人永远死不光；坏人也杀不完。
a reminder for yourself, both good and bad people will always exist, no matter what.

多过一个人的地方就会有问题。
when there're more than 1 person, there're conflicts.

这是事实，
this is the truth,

我们要学习接受。
that we got to learn to accept.

这样会开心点。
we will be happier.

p/s - it was a programme discussing about 易经. i find it seriously meaningful. =)
those philosophy discussed, helped me a lot to become a happier person.

(Photo by LC-A+ with Agfa ProPack 200)

photos to share. =)

2009-12-29T04:09:00.003Z

sent 5 rolls of films for processing last week.
got them back yesterday and im happy. =)
here are some LC-A+ shots by me.

with Kodak E100GX -

with Fuji Velvia 100F -

with Agfa ProPack 200 -

LC-A+ is a great camera, but i need to work more on the focus tho. >.<
and im so so in love with negatives again. =)

p/s - it's study week! but im not studying. how?

nothing*没有

2009-12-20T17:02:00.003Z

最近在学习
recently i'm learning.

学习着不再为得不到的东西而感到遗憾
learning how not to be upset, about not getting what i want.

我们都知道
we all know

生活可以很简单，也可以很复杂。
life can be so simple, yet it can be complicated too.

为何我们往往都把事情看的那么复杂？
why we always live it in the complicated way?

为何不简简单单就好？
why not a simple life?

原来没有得到的东西，其实让我们更轻松。
not having something could be good for us.

因为当你拥有了，有一天，你就要鼓起勇气放下。
because, there'll be a day, you'll need to give up if you own something.

好辛苦哦。
argh.

Life can be so wonderful.

p/s - it's now the study break and i'm so gonna to start my engine to achieve my first class! oh wait! i'm not done with hibernating. =(

(Photo taken by Diana+ with Fuji Provia 100F 120mm, cross processed.)

there's always hope.

2009-12-14T15:39:00.005Z

grandpa was admitted into hospital. HDU unit.
visited him last week.
the HDU unit was just next to ICU unit.

there's a long corridor outside of both units.
solemn is the word, to describe the corridor.
i saw people came out feeling weak,
i also saw them crying.

and i was thinking,
what can be worse than death?
or losing your beloved ones?

when i was entering the HDU unit.
i managed to take a glance, of the ICU unit.
people gasping for air, to live on.
they struggled, but all they wanted was to live on.

i soon realized that,
comparing to their determination, to live on for the next second,
my courseworks, projects, problems are tiny little sand.

so, guys, do not give up easily, even though things may seem hard.

here i wish,
all people to be pink of health.
and grandpa, get well soon!
i promised ya, i will fetch u to go for siew pao and dim sum, remember?
=)

be positive about your life.
there's always hope, i believe.
=D

(photo taken by Fisheye No. 2 with Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.)

这次哭了*cried this time

2009-12-09T17:04:00.003Z

想哭的时候

when i feel like crying,

我会拼命喝水

i will keep drinking lotsa water.

以为不会再哽咽

i thought the flow would bring my tears away from my eyes

不过

but

还是挡不住眼泪

i was wrong.

对。这次我哭了

ya. i've cried this time.

都因为自己懦弱

it's my fault.

p/s - oh please. i seriously need stronger EQ to overcome this.

(Photo taken by Holga 135 BC with Fuji Xtra 200)

be myself.

2009-12-06T17:24:00.003Z

原来

做自己

真的很难......

now i know,

it's really hard

to be myself.

p/s- no i'm not emo. just feeling disappointed with the human nature. aiks. well, life goes on, no matter what, right?

你说......

2009-11-30T14:12:00.004Z

你说，
当局者迷，旁观者清

我问，
为什么往往我在局外看自己，
剩下的，只有遗憾？

或许我们都不诚实，
我们都爱逃避。

p/s - sorry for abandoning my blog for quite some time. =( i was busy with courseworks and assignments and am still busy with it. =( how sad, right?

(Photo taken by Holga 135BC with Fuji Velvia 100F, cross processed.)

i love u.

2009-11-17T16:01:00.003Z

dear papa mama,

thanks for giving me everything. thanks for your patience.

when i was wrong, you told me what is right.

you know what is best for me, and you gave me your best.

and now i want to say,

I LOVE YOU.

dear gor gors,

thanks for being there for me.

i remember when i was young, you guys were there for me, when i was in tears.

you guys were there for me again, when i was in excitement.

those moments we spent together, i treasure each and every of it.

and now i want to say

I LOVE YOU.

dear ss family members,

thanks for listening to me always.

mukie, remember those times i called you and i burst into tears.

you did not say a word, what you did was just, listened.

mei mei, sim sim, yin yin and wai hong, distances are keeping us apart now, and i really miss y'all.

and now i want to say

I LOVE YOU.

dear ALL my friends,

sorry because i couldn't name each and everyone of you here. but i'm pretty sure you know who you are.

thanks for making my life wonderful.

i really couldn't imagine how my life would be if it's without you.

i know i'm those type of girl who complains always, and i'm glad that you did not ignore me.

you were there for me.

and now i want to say

I LOVE YOU.

it's 1118. and i'm a year older.

i really wish all people to be in pink of health, and world peace. =D

I AM EVERYTHING I AM, BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME.

and now i want to say,

I LOVE YOU

oh ya. not to forget, my little sweatheart, lucky zai.

you know jie jie loves you always. muacks kyky.

p/s - my mom sent me a sms at 12am sharp and i nearly cried. thanks mom. i really love u. heart heart! and the cari gang kidnapped me to TTS 5. and they made me nearly cried too. i'm thankful. for having you all around me.

(photo taken by Holga 135 BC with Kodak EBX, cross processed.)

J.for.Jhen

与我常在

新年新希望*new year hope

Prague, again on 2011.

happy day.

efforts.

你好吗?

i miss you.

桃花开 摇摇摆摆

always there*一直都在

给某人

the answer

when i need courage,

一路走来

掉了

爱*love

跌痛

走

home is good. :D

i wanna do it my way*做我自己

happy mother's day!

我还在学！

十年一刻

'Love Never Dies' in London Adelphi Theatre

马来西亚，噢，我的国土

something*有些事情

sorry

骗子

random shots in prague*布拉格乱拍篇

churches in prague*布拉格教堂篇

prague at night*布拉格夜景篇

feliz navidad!

thank you. 一切很美，只因有你。

英国的秋天

抛物线

lomography pop 9

living my life, in the UK.

感恩

单车

happy birthday, Malaysia!

灯

Home of the Day by jhen89

原来，

from the ground level.

goodbye joe, he gotta go, me oh my oh.

something new.

desire vs reality

Departures*おくりびと

happiness in life.

music and i

a feather duster.

passion and memories.

life*人生

happy father's day!

believe.

united and strong.

Echoes of the Rainbow*岁月神偷

life has an absolute*生命有一种绝对

突然好想你

make a wish, make a wish.

recent update.

goodbye 3 years.

sharing*纯分享

自己的步伐*my own pace

mama.

sunset in UNMC

share.

i feel good.

感谢你*thanks all

0415 生日快乐

朋友*friend

说*say

us,honesty*你我他,坦白

colorful memories*彩色回忆

你走了。you left.

life's good.

'Happy Contented'*祝你知足常乐

myself*自己

new header.

Happy Chinese New Year*新年快乐

桃花开摇摇摆摆